Always good qualities of us…together 7

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  • June 28, 2017 at 5:10 pm #3832

    Josh

    There are a lot of different business models in the roofing business. When the tree unexpectedly feel into our house and caused leaks and damage, we were knew to all of that, & in a hurry. Katrina New Orleans happened at the same time as the huge wind storm damaging a lot of property all around are neighborhood. It was quick to get roofers to come out from the phone book and slow to get the insurance adjuster out, and genuinely difficult to figure out all the various damage from the initial big tree fall and then the water coming in through flat roof leaks. We were both working with a young child and busy anyway. K did some calling, starting from “A” in the phone book. There is a correlation between ads/A names and business models. I ended up talking a lot to “Action Roofing”. The guy who came out was good, like most in that business model, at talking to insurance guys and getting full compensation for claims. Knowing he was a roofer, the insurance guy was a bit of a tight ass about roofing things and more liberal about compensating other damage. I had to get a new electrical mast/box in a hurry just to get power back after a few days. When I learned more about roofing, I realized that flat roofing was tricky business & I ended up spending more than the insurance provided to get the entire upper flat roof replaced with a good technology and metal that matched the current color scheme of the house, not requiring painting. However, I didn’t really need to paint every large wall that had some water mark on it, and I didn’t replace the cinder block retaining wall that had 1 or 2 broken blocks at the top. I did remodel a bathroom rather than just replace. Overall, I spent more than the settlement, but the money helped with remodeling some spots to be better than before.

  • June 28, 2017 at 11:46 pm #3833

    Josh

    Earlier today, I was mildly interested in the topic of the actual education one gets in cooking school. Partly for general knowledge, & partly for your interest. It’s not a pressing issue & I’m not sure if that was even a topic (would have been if u had been writing it).

    I decided that the question of Belgium banks was more interesting & relevant.

    • June 28, 2017 at 11:57 pm #3834

      Josh

      No need to be upset today. I think it is okay to ask all relevant parties & they will say.

      I also realize – I wouldn’t lie to people I love. I wouldn’t cheat them. I expect to love my closest relationships & value that. This is big cultural difference that is not about sexuality. RM is not open, but inwardly explicit about being against all of those things. SpartaToMafiaSpartaStalin&PTBarnumOnTheCoin is where they are at.

      • June 29, 2017 at 4:17 am #3839

        Josh

        The idea I was understanding was that Emma was somehow more advanced than u (and LuAnn) in terms of understanding that in men were gay & that 1-1 relationships were prohibited. Was that the claim & if so I was mildly interested in how she learned it. That was what I took from that.

        • June 29, 2017 at 4:32 am #3840

          Josh

          EV feels deprived – in all the familiar ways – but the experience has left her more familiar with what u have gone through. She was updating me on that info.

  • June 29, 2017 at 12:13 am #3835

    Josh

    I didn’t have a very unique interaction with the UPenn prof. I took two courses and went to some seminars, and he wrote me a decent letter of rec. Nothing off or personal. Ms. BW was suspected of being on the make for guys in general, including students in classes. Not sure if that was in people related in any way…seemed to be conventional.

  • June 29, 2017 at 12:40 am #3836

    Josh

    U didn’t explain to me how it was in the late 80s and early 90s and mid 90s that u didn’t feel like u didn’t always feel like u were settling in to just watching me from afar, but sometimes u did & got depressed. Then later, u had some hope even with no contact. I don’t have an idea of what triggered the fluctuation in the no contact state. Internet?

  • June 29, 2017 at 12:47 am #3837

    Josh

    I’m going to try and run ground to my desktop area. It should help. My ohm meter, unfortunately, is out of its Lion battery, so I can’t test connections. But making the connection won’t be wasted work in any case.

    • June 29, 2017 at 3:50 am #3838

      Josh

      It seems to have worked…at least I did a a version of running ground and I am not feeling the kind of wave effect that I associate with the idea of overloading bits of non-grounded shielding with EMP charge so that they re-radiate. I still have to deal with direct shots and reflections, and of course flux…but okay, I fix one problem at a time.

      Every place I go to discussion board I see people writing LCs. I don’t know to the extent to which this was true 2 years ago, or it’s true because of sites I visit, or it’s true because of DOD cyber warfare/propaganda programs or its true in some hijacked virtual version of the Internet that I see and interact with. I wish I had an awareness of a few years back to directly compare, but I wasn’t visiting those sites then & I wasn’t aware.

      I should investigate the old comments. But I’d appreciate your thoughts, if u have any.

  • June 29, 2017 at 9:07 am #3844

    Josh

    Something about the Biel Chess Festival?

  • June 29, 2017 at 2:20 pm #3848

    Josh

    I had to get my head together before Riley was calling today…kind of freaky clues about it. I’m glad it worked out. I expect freaky now, so it’s hard to know what to say.

    I also thought good thoughts of u while I was laying down.

  • June 29, 2017 at 7:43 pm #3855

    Josh

    Dementia and unfamiliarity left me slow to think of “captain”.

  • June 29, 2017 at 8:02 pm #3858

    Josh

    Mr. Magoo strolls along the ledge of a sinister volcano as misc. bad guys in black run up behind and push people in, or roll them down the slope. All for no actual intelligent reason.

  • June 30, 2017 at 1:31 am #3863

    Josh

    My poor lonely, world’s fastest reader, typist, editor, lyric writer & boat slave, needs to up the dynamic sex appeal, without any contact, picture, or personal details. Will some fictional jealousy story be the magic ticket to excitement? Not exactly, but stay tuned for the rest of this very unpredictable story. (The lovely girl does get the virtual guy to come over into her special virtual space for real close consultation..)

  • June 30, 2017 at 1:44 am #3864

    Josh

    U want me to tweet again about the idea of hetero in women only seeing guy interests from afar, as a way to boost their writing/perception/feeling?

    Or u mean the article on Wiki “History of Banking”? It was leg on topic but not saying too much that felt both credible & relevant. It claimed that in Middle East history there were stories about only in women and dildos, not in ass – so economic, anti-reproductive thing. Not so relevant in a causal way to the modern story. It also seemed to suggest that Bank of England had in women at the start, in 17th Century and that Federal Reserve in US had in women at the start in 20th C. Sometimes banks did have in women doing work like editors, but its not so special – just more free work. I guess it was synergistic with vaults at some point in history. But I didn’t have any light bulb go off about a special explanation in that article.

    • June 30, 2017 at 1:46 am #3865

      Josh

      The idea of “Banks” in LCs they focused on was “in kills”.

      • June 30, 2017 at 1:49 am #3866

        Josh

        In the modern context, slavery is something to hide. But that was not the origin. So why “in kills”? Maybe they were hiding theft, etc. but I didn’t see any juicy detail in the bits I read. Will look elsewhere on the Internet.

        • June 30, 2017 at 3:04 am #3868

          Josh

          There are, of course, countless financial crimes, especially if they combine inside accomplices with murder, larceny, fraud, embezzlement, etc. Those crimes don’t seem to go quite as well with the drive for larger, consolidated banks – small town, etc. would be better. Modern vs. historical tradition is an open question. Money laundering works well with both, but that’s not mainly a crime of back rooms in the pre electronic era.

          One point for the significance of slavery is that legal banking is a high monetary volume, low margin biz. So not paying salaries can translate to huge profit differences, as salary is most of the cost.

  • June 30, 2017 at 2:59 am #3867

    Josh

    Back to flux – some sort of powerful, diffuse flux from the North House attic. I’ll probably lay down for a bit & then see what combination of poly & plastic works best. over the foil.

    • June 30, 2017 at 3:50 am #3870

      Josh

      That’s a sign of progress. Not one that feels great at this second, but it is hash mark. The EMP/laser at this spot is betting beaten, and I know how to deal with the flux (foil/steel conducts it around, so I have to some/most of that surface. Hopefully, the poly will minimize the amount that needs treatment & I don’t have to cover it all. But I have no way to do anything analogous to grounding the flux..I can only cancel/lowpass the radiations.

  • June 30, 2017 at 3:39 am #3869

    Josh

    The A is real sweet & strong there imagining us…so I do too…Today, I feel, u know to smile when I say I trust & like whatever u imagine.

  • June 30, 2017 at 4:00 am #3871

    Josh

    U are not going to share “us”. But u care, & u are okay with me caring. So that is a kind of sharing. I don’t try to fix or conflicts or claim they are fixable, but I try to minimize them. Here, I agree, “not guilty”…u wanted me to know about how folks were feeling & I took it in that way.

    • June 30, 2017 at 4:56 am #3880

      Josh

      I think u should say A) U don’t feel like u want to share & u don’t imagine that changing. It’s not impossible, but it’s not something u want or imagine or want to think about; B) U want to feel like a special friend, not a rival woman. Here is what special friend means to u….

  • June 30, 2017 at 4:05 am #3872

    Josh

    I was working out Viv R. I felt that I did. To understand your thought.

  • June 30, 2017 at 4:15 am #3873

    Josh

    This is terrifying, but I’m not sure who it represents.

    • June 30, 2017 at 4:20 am #3874

      Josh

      I’m not sure what happened to LuAnn. But I felt like BS was flowing after she went off mic, so I tried not to speculate. I don’t feel the BS is informative.

      • June 30, 2017 at 4:25 am #3875

        Josh

        The main thing is that she was talented, & there would be no econ benefit to immediately harming her…and the BS started flowing immediately. I think the BS’ers were angry, which never bodes well, but I don’t have enough info to say what all the parameters are. EV disappeared, but she is talented, so she keeps popping up for work cameos here and there.

        • June 30, 2017 at 4:49 am #3879

          Josh

          Why is this dumb:

          Let’s enumerate. First, FBI/CIA don’t need any outsider to report or lie for them. They are the biggest liars in the world and perjure themselves in D.C. on almost every fucking day of the year. Second, who would this person be reporting to? The premise is that she is an outsider from some consulting outfit. Third, WTF do french hoodlums have to do with anything. Are they bringing heroin to pack in your ass so your death shows up as an overdose on a tox screen. All these people know as much shit as me, so you are all in. Did LuAnn miss her chance to get out because holding her with no communication after 2 days looks bad. Or is the communication going to be faked for a while? I don’t know. I hope that her outfit didn’t knowingly sell her into slavery, but maybe they did. In that case, she is probably cooling her heels, and will eventually get some work to do in order to eat, like my friends.

  • June 30, 2017 at 4:30 am #3876

    Josh

    I thought of Blues Walk, though it’s just a semi-random example

  • June 30, 2017 at 4:33 am #3877

    Josh

    Was she gay? Openly?

    • June 30, 2017 at 4:37 am #3878

      Josh

      I think her name was Emily. Her desk was next to Anita’s. I just remember her as smoking a lot, being kind of Soho, and probably thinking “There’s not enough space here. All of you get the fuck out of my space.” or something like that.

  • June 30, 2017 at 3:11 pm #3882

    Josh

    Getting rid of some negative feelings helps. That’s a step.

  • June 30, 2017 at 3:17 pm #3883

    Josh

    There is a story about some local youth for real (in one of the local HS)?

  • June 30, 2017 at 7:56 pm #3884

    Josh

    They detected me mulling the “How was Anita connected?” question as I lay down. I thought about the name “Moryadas” as “Mo’ real whitey az” or “Man owe the whitey ass” – possible. How does that help? Her maternal grandfather was State Dept. weirdo and her mom was this giant troll like creature – so maybe her father was a kind of a mustache husband, who fell off the wagon having an affair (whether or not he was biological father, the stories of her troubles growing up with his alcoholism and affair rang true). So maybe she was casually connected, hired by Potter, and then kind of urged to go in different directions later without getting a full story. Dunno.

  • June 30, 2017 at 8:14 pm #3885

    Josh

    Like a said before…I focus on us & keeping the us good, so long as we both want to be in a love relationship. If there was an afterwards to that, who knows…if we were all together on a desert island, that would be different special situation too, but not one that is likely to every happen. So from my POV, u didn’t need to feel any conflict. But from your friend POV, u feel it. So I try to relate to helping u with that. I also relate to how Babes feels & how hard everything is for all of us and how it helps to think of anything brighter & happier to keep going – I feel that’s necessary & valuable & not harm. Saying those things doesn’t fix it for either of u, but friendship still helps & actual conflict isn’t necessary, for the reasons I say.

  • June 30, 2017 at 9:05 pm #3886

    Josh

    He doesn’t like it, though I don’t know if that reply was u of it exists outside of my special twitter feed.

    He was born in July, but yeah I think mom took “A sexy ass in g” and “A sexy ass in general electric” trying to set up that cadence with the same Juli sound “Jooli a in”

  • June 30, 2017 at 9:23 pm #3887

    Josh

    I’m curious about what the sub-editor output looked like on this one:

    Sounds like some gleeful lying.

    But editors are basically editors. They act out fantasies. Some are about romance, some about independence, and some about murder. In every case they are not the people commanding troops.

  • June 30, 2017 at 10:20 pm #3888

    Josh

    I am sleeping on the couch again tonite?

    • June 30, 2017 at 10:40 pm #3889

      Josh

      Rockford Files reference was more relevant, but the Anoop reading was on my mind & there is a parallel, I feel, in terms of a guy trying to survive and thinking (rationally) that some sort of publicity is rationally better than letting other people lie.

      Also, I feel your criticism is good. I am feeling my war with this word of mouth thing, working against FBI/NSA/CIA/DOD to see how it works, without any cultural education of in people (you, my editor friends, are not in people in that relevant sense). Like today, when I cussed at a car in way only spies would hear, I let them know it had EMF gun installed. Which reminds me that I meant to look more at the local paper.

  • July 1, 2017 at 2:50 am #3890

    Josh

    Boa is like a blanket, a roof, & a Rothko Chapel.

    And what I do? I say I hear u. I say I see u. I say I feel u. Is it something? Well yeah, more than nothing! So that is something.

  • July 1, 2017 at 6:50 am #3893

    Josh

    Through some strange path this tweet turned out be about kitchen design:

  • July 1, 2017 at 4:04 pm #3894

    Josh

    I’m A LOT more nostalgic for u than anything else. That is the truth.

  • July 1, 2017 at 5:37 pm #3895

    Josh

    My endlessly clever tiny child on unknown drugs…say it isn’t so!

  • July 1, 2017 at 6:07 pm #3896

    Josh

    My wish to plan to bring all the planets into a line for u

    ***
    My intuition says that Hyacinth’s friend for tea was a bit like the average Sgt. Pepper recruit. Those arching eyebrows & grimaces echo around the Internet today. Besides true love I need your energy to keep living & finding a way.

  • July 1, 2017 at 7:46 pm #3897

    Josh

    Hu’ss building a fense? I am seeing no fense. There is no fense here. Some say fense. And there is no fense. None. That is unacceptable.

    • July 1, 2017 at 8:05 pm #3899

      Josh

      They laughed when we said “The land lord from 3’s Company is our secret weapon”.

      MUHAHAHAHAHA. Now they no better!

      • July 1, 2017 at 8:08 pm #3900

        Josh

        With a nod to Bishop Desmond Tutu.

  • July 1, 2017 at 7:51 pm #3898

    Josh

    I was too slow to come up with the musical X ref “Many of our people…are making left turns,” and I lost the tweet with the hat pic on the dog.

  • July 1, 2017 at 8:31 pm #3901

    Josh

    The woman who is in Michael Best saw me in that period. She did a version of Rikki Tikki Tavi…

    • July 1, 2017 at 8:37 pm #3902

      Josh

      I’m not a mind reader at distance, and I don’t know her like u, but I hope it was a response to the note I left the other day about how I first worry if people are still themselves.

      Which is warm & true, on both ends…in difficult circumstances.

      • July 1, 2017 at 9:51 pm #3903

        Josh

        I found some different way to parse it. but it wasn’t 100% in rhythm. Everyone is in awe of your skills, but sometimes its fun for other people to try new things.

  • July 2, 2017 at 4:32 am #3905

    Josh

    If I get me way, I’ll be ‘there’ for u every day.

    Talking about “warriors” is easy. Let’s try to get square with the idea that warrior is our lot for the foreseeable future & we plan to stay ourselves, inside, going through that. I don’t know how to do other than that or better than that. I try to be less stupid & forgetful. Your advice about doing something one is afraid of every day is good.

  • July 2, 2017 at 4:39 am #3906

    Josh

    Is this Re the tale of Grant Hart’s Mother?

    • July 2, 2017 at 4:40 am #3907

      Josh

      One small victory from that story is that Bob Mould was a gay Indie and Greg Norton was a straight Indie & both are still alive, if not thriving like stars.

  • July 2, 2017 at 4:53 am #3908

    Josh

    In the story of the multiple Joe Scarborough’s it sounded like the original thought that retiring from high profile life would help him. Me survey indicates the opposite. Was his connection with reincarnated crooked lawyer firm a cause or an effect of his demise? Info was sparse & I didn’t pursue the question too far.

  • July 2, 2017 at 5:47 am #3909

    Josh

    Some real leg talk here.

    http://www.standard.co.uk/showbiz/celebrity-news/nile-rodgers-had-most-inspirational-trip-to-london-after-volunteering-to-help-the-grenfell-tower-a3577616.html

    But I saw I tweet that got my thinking of u. I was thinking about how u like the idea/feeling of leadership, but u felt more comfortable in a position of strength & solid ground rather than a position of weakness/desperation & uncertainty. U know that is going to be true for most everyone & u know that u are still the best around. It makes sense to focus a little bit more on leadership. I try to. I am trying to understand the mindset of different people, what controls them, what drives them to do things, etc. I’m making some progress with that. Sometimes art gives insight & sometimes it is a bridge of sorts. Everyone wants a future & to feel like their life experience gives some value that is a part of that. I’m no Pharaoh. I’m no pirate. I’m just talking about what I think is true to bust some lies & free some slaves & prevent some more murders, etc. I can’t be sunny in all ways. It doesn’t fit. Pharaoh and Blackbeard are not talking or planning to. Other people do a little talking and little listening.

  • July 2, 2017 at 8:50 am #3910

    Josh

    Different forms of ice today. Did we learn anything? I continue to feel that I am finding more with “pull” search than with any “push” sources. Push sources are always designed to be uninformative, so they would only be informative by accident – which can happen, but is not as time efficient.

    • July 2, 2017 at 12:18 pm #3911

      Josh

      It’s pointless to react to all the skits, especially the silly ones. Nobody was losing their freedom because of reading my delusional, error not true messages on a message board. But someone may see them somehow and think.

  • July 2, 2017 at 12:28 pm #3912

    Josh

    Did they end up putting u back on a boat or a private island? I’m wondering whether being under Maritime jurisdiction is some kind of a clue, or whether it is just a tradition. In the msg. it was not, but there might have been some thought behind that.

    • July 2, 2017 at 12:38 pm #3914

      Josh

      It’s true that I didn’t notice it was a flirt on first pass – different style. It’s also true that I know u hate flirts & I would actually retire from the LC messaging biz if I could do something else. It was skillful in the sense that it got u irritated & got me to think about it & put me down in prose space without actually conveying any info, except for the possibly useful or not useful suggestion of Maritime law which was more likely just for sound &/or based on reading other things I had written.

      So we move on, tarried, but unscathed.

      • July 2, 2017 at 12:40 pm #3915

        Josh

        I spent more time thinking about Janet Yellen, but didn’t come to any real world conclusions of note, only wild, untrue ideas.

        • July 2, 2017 at 2:30 pm #3916

          Josh

          I am a little bit freaked out about Corbett because he is in Japan, isn’t appearing in the lastest video & the audio seems to be a high quality voice synthesis trained on tapes of his voice rather than an actual recording of him speaking.

          Eventually they will post a speaking video & see if it is fully in synch or what the deal is.

          • July 2, 2017 at 2:42 pm #3917

            Josh

            YouTube video looks okay. It’s just weird in the audio podcast from the site. Maybe a bandwidth artifact or some Internet monkeying.

  • July 2, 2017 at 12:31 pm #3913

    Josh

    In the guy’s tweet about “Wimbledon” it was about how I got informed by the illegal abuse “Why I’m bleedin'”

  • July 2, 2017 at 8:10 pm #3920

    Josh

    Donal Logue’s daughter is openly transgender, according to Wiki.

  • July 2, 2017 at 8:52 pm #3921

    Josh

    This tweet started out being about how important u are, and u turned into a note about me being a suboptimal fatso…was on purpose? 🙂

    • July 2, 2017 at 9:05 pm #3922

      Josh

      I thought about the songs from the Wizard of Oz from the POV of the leg owning the slave ranch with the editors and sexing them for manipulation, etc.

      I even see myself in there as appealing to the Cowardly Lion type. I didn’t even need to see the printouts (and u know that I suck without printouts). It’s blatant.

      But didn’t do much for flex MY buttocks. That is true.

      • July 2, 2017 at 10:20 pm #3926

        Josh

        The Wizard of Oz is the wise old dildo in guy who manages the error store. “Bring me the witches broomstick” has something to do with capturing a woman in though it’s not clear precisely which set of activities is included. I wondered about “You liquified her” “fi ed” is some kind of leg dildo talk.

        Anyway…

        • July 2, 2017 at 10:40 pm #3927

          Josh

          The Wicked Witch of the West keeps saying “Bring me those ruby red slippers” – meaning she is an extra challenge because she is hot for real dick which the RM doesn’t offer in this situation.

          The Wicked Witch of the East – a house fell on her. Meaning what?

          “Press siding – boom” is a physical idea. House = “Hiney only us see” is more of the murder replacement idea – original is buried under somewhere, and the house is taken over. Some kind of sex with an in man is a different idea. After whatever it was, she was “dead”, literally or metaphorically, so she couldn’t use the slippers any more.

          • July 2, 2017 at 11:18 pm #3928

            Josh

            Yeah, Dorothy was dropped by a Tornado and is trying to get back to “Kansas”. Advised to Follow the Yellow Brick Road to go see the Wizard of Oz.

            Eventually learns the value of propaganda/brainwashing “There is no place like home. There is no place like home.”

            Recall big picture: Wizard of Oz is a 1939 film. The lit is for the Newspapers, upper classes that were hating the New Deal, labor standards, trying to get rid of FDR with the Business Plot etc. from their POV, the White slavers managing the profitable working women in the back were the good guys and they had HR problems to solve to optimize those profits during the Depression.

          • July 3, 2017 at 3:54 pm #3946

            Josh

            These prairie bandit archetype crimes are actually related to the meaning of the name “J. Edgar Hoover”. There is a kind of nice farm house (castle), the man is to be killed, and the woman turned into a dildo slave for work.

            J. – the guy is dead
            Ed (ucate)the “gay ass”…
            Hiney “oo oo” ver-
            dildo the women to claim she is only gay and beat her into some kind of sexual/violence coward submission

  • July 2, 2017 at 9:27 pm #3923

    Josh

    I didn’t understand this. About lounging, I think the idea is that I should focus less on Twitter. I agree, but I don’t plan to focus on twitter. I can only read .000001% of your output, and Twitter is less important than MOST other editing tasks. So having more than I can read isn’t the issue related to a strike.

    What is George Soros about?

  • July 2, 2017 at 9:30 pm #3924

    Josh

    My sense is that Peter Van Buren doesn’t really write or read LCs. He knows people that do. But he gets guest editing.

    • July 2, 2017 at 9:35 pm #3925

      Josh

      That said, it’s a different situation when the tweets start looking like they were completely authored by someone else. However, I don’t know if that is special to my fake twitter setup. That is one motivation for responding.

  • July 2, 2017 at 11:42 pm #3929

    Josh

    Creepy voicings a lot scarier than tinkerbell, but a lot less scary than discussions of threatened violence or true murders

  • July 3, 2017 at 12:18 am #3930

    Josh

    Was that page a near RT report on the activities of Daniel Dubov? Hard to say. Claimed a position of info.

  • July 3, 2017 at 1:18 am #3931

    Josh

    Now, I never think bad thoughts about the past or emotionally blame u for anything. In the reality of CIA/FBI, all paths were chancy and uncertain. But it would have made sense to keep teaching me to understand u better. Better understanding helps a lot even when everything else gets worse. Trust is something that people have to develop. With less understanding it is harder. But u needed trust to show more. It’s a same that some very early things – for ice or whatever – had the effect of introducing suspicion/distrust that took us a while to overcome.

    Today, we got together, & we are easy even when everything else is difficult.

  • July 3, 2017 at 3:20 am #3939

    Josh

    U have better confidence in me/us & understanding, today, which helps u to skip negative trains of thought. On inspection, it seems that no one has commoditized the market for your porridge.

    • July 3, 2017 at 4:00 pm #3947

      Josh

      I try to give u a love locket. U know our big love is there. U know u can find it any time, night or day.

      • July 3, 2017 at 4:08 pm #3948

        Josh

        Let’s make an momentary exception to use a shocking phrase: U are a slut for imagining situations that have *some* kind of interest or appeal…but some kinds of focus & planning are neither helpful nor psychologically healthy. U don’t need to go there. It is not revealed truth. It is not actual planning because we have no such powers. It is just your emotionally disabling distraction. So u help yourself by not going down those paths. Flor was being so open & honest by saying “I want emotional motivation” & tried to reply honestly in kind. Helps us. Doesn’t hurt us. U don’t need to worry about unreachable situations being sub-optimal in some way. Need to worry about us (all) & surviving.

  • July 3, 2017 at 3:30 am #3940

    Josh

    Did he call himself a “Track ted?” Probably. The quote seems lit. He’s describing himself as conventional hetero who is informed by in people stuff. He may also be aware that Trump not speaks for RM.

  • July 3, 2017 at 12:46 pm #3941

    Josh

    I see good activity. I’ve got some things to deal with hear, including a kind of long range EMF that is good with fast, precise targeting, so it takes a toll over extended exposure (sleep or awake) without triggering a quick, constructive reaction. Need to figure out the best reactions.

  • July 3, 2017 at 1:44 pm #3942

    Josh

    I thought about the idea that I could have been Deep State switched at birth, on purpose, in secret. On the one hand, it would have been easy for them to do – in network hospital, my mom talking, probably had my name selected ahead of time with discussion, plenty of warning, etc.

    On the other hand, I have no really interesting evidence of that, so it’s kind of silly to speculate on.

    • July 3, 2017 at 1:47 pm #3943

      Josh

      Whatever the origin, I think it’s plausible that in history there was a struggle between the interests of purely gay men, women, & men who had elements of bisexuality, and that after National Security Act of 1947 etc. the purely gay element just gradually gained more power & violence & control. So whatever the original designs were, they turned into statement exercises about how everything had to be purely male gay underneath, in disguises.

    • July 3, 2017 at 2:14 pm #3944

      Josh

      I tried to think about any weird stories from my Mom’s past that would connect. The only thing that came to mind is one I don’t have much detail about. She had a best friend growing up named Flora, who was living in NYC by the time I was old enough to remember. She was married to a guy named Good (or possibly Goode), and she worked as a “secretary” Stephen Schwarzman who created BlackStone hedge fund. She had no children. She lived with my mom’s family for some time as youth. Why? I didn’t get the story. I don’t recall her maiden name. But maybe she was a minor connected player and it set up the idea of my mom as a kind of good nest.

      A pretty thin idea…

      • July 3, 2017 at 2:38 pm #3945

        Josh

        A different clue line with a thin connection to some lore:

        My maternal grandfather was a Lichtenstein man, an independent salesman by profession who used who wife as a secretary to keep the books. He sold office furniture & playground equipment. One of the office furniture companies he represented was called Haskell – he had a tie pin with their emblem. Those things might have had some ancient significance.

        • July 3, 2017 at 4:22 pm #3949

          Josh

          Whatever the idea might have been (if there was any), at the time of my birth in 1964, it would have been different and adapted by the time of your emergence as superstar, forever in editor in 1976, and then again when the volume that u actually produce on the Internet emerged in the early ’90s.

          Money is still a big driver, even if some of the older ideas linger in lower positions.

  • July 3, 2017 at 9:21 pm #3961

    Josh

    The fire pit in the back is circular, maybe 3.5 ft. diameter, about 6 inches below ground, surrounding by another 6in of concrete block. Short grass is beyond that. I was burning small sticks, but I got a lot of fuel, so the pit got covered with hot embers. I let it die out, & didn’t put the embers out. The last one still had red embers the next day. Eventually, the percentage of material dissipated was enormous – more than 99.5% I’d guess by weight & volume. Maybe higher. Just a coating of ash at the bottom after enormous burning of fuel. One doesn’t see that often, so it was a little surprising.

  • July 3, 2017 at 9:29 pm #3962

    Josh

    I feel that Anita was not knowing, but she may have been told things to say or do. If someone had a plan to keep me off story by sending a promiscuous, very openly sexual person to be openly sexual with me, even around the dept. then their plan succeeded. As soon as she moved to CA then she turned off. She wasn’t actually not into me. She was just over any possibility of relationship even though the plan had been for her to delay school a year and to move to the same place together – so it was weird. I put it down to the time/culture shock of 1st year Arch. school, my prof. problems/funk, & her emotional makeup. Later she said “I ruined your life.” I denied that & didn’t feel it was true, and I thought it was a way of expunging guilt. But if someone had told he to say “I ruined your life error (by keeping you out of harm’s way at MIT in term of lunatic sex kills)” then that would have been true. Probably just coincidence, I feel today. But who knows.

  • July 4, 2017 at 5:54 am #3971

    Josh

    I get great art in! It should help me get more done. And it actually does, in theory. Unfortunately I am not spending much time looking for art these days, there is not that much time for saving. Still this art is a thrill.

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    • July 4, 2017 at 7:59 am #3972

      Josh

      U like to be at your best (and take pride in that). I am struggling with being at way worse than my best in feeling, effectiveness, and sometimes clarity, for month after month. Since the start of the EMF war 3.5 years ago and the start of “Star Wars” continuous auto-targeting 2 years ago, and the start of FBI asshole physically vandalizing my house on almost every trip during the past year, I haven’t been able to win that war to feel okay and get things done like I should. I put a lot of effort in, but they have so much money, manpower, malice, tech, & criminal will, that they spend whatever it takes to kick me. It gets frustrating & distracting. Recently, I’ve developed a way of trying to make progress that is sort of adapted to being spacey. I don’t really recommend it or want to stick with that. It’s just what I’m working with at the moment. The EMF is half of the issue, and the reality of world criminality/abuse/murder off all law is the other half. I keep trying to identify biggest problem I can solve & fix that. It actually works a lot of the time, but then there is something else. Last few hours I decided it feels like my electrical ground is not good/effective – did it get disconnected somewhere or sabotaged (like with the phone connection incident) or is it just more incident EMF?? Don’t know. I’m bummed I forgot to buy a battery for the meter. But I will try to run a better connection, and hope that helps.

  • July 5, 2017 at 1:08 am #3991

    Josh

    I know that I can’t get real time answers on Twitter to any questions except from FBI people trying to pass out disinfo. But I thought it might be helpful to ask anyway in case an answer can eventually reach me in some format, or else influence someone’s thinking.

  • July 5, 2017 at 1:28 am #3992

    Josh

    U are most real thing. I always keep faith in u. I don’t know whether or not u can tell how many real people are sincerely paying attention to u or corresponding with u…but that doesn’t matter. That is all card tricks. It doesn’t change anything about us.

  • July 5, 2017 at 3:27 am #3994

    Josh

    Got a little less EMF tonite (actually hitting)…and a super warm A to keep me company. Like like.

    I know I should write. Feeling behind on everything, but I’m focused & getting more energized.

  • July 5, 2017 at 3:34 am #3995

    Josh

    When the transvestite version of this comes out, maybe the FBI will declare that gayness has been eradicated from the planet & the US can now do with a professional criminal racketeering force at the Federal level. Unlikely, but one can hope.

  • July 5, 2017 at 3:48 am #3996

    Josh

    It still feels like striking is the main thing that people notice, though somehow some other word of mouth may happen at a moderate pace among other editors & then at a slower pace to readers and then…who can say?

  • July 5, 2017 at 8:07 am #4002

    Josh

    Pretta sexy…but is it based on somebody’s else remark?

    • July 5, 2017 at 5:41 pm #4009

      Josh

      The bishop talking last night was very explicit about no real sex for women. I say over & over that I am totally past caring about the sexual politics of ass Hitler. His preference is Alien cocoon pupae to me.

  • July 5, 2017 at 4:32 pm #4003

    Josh

    “Two witches one dollar” is a spark thought I had.

    It felt like lore fantasy.

    • July 5, 2017 at 4:39 pm #4004

      Josh

      One starts to get the idea that Deep State is driving the planet & Deep State is much more driven by fantasy, sport, & propaganda than by reality or economics. I’m always reluctant to say economics is not the crucial limitations, but I keep seeing expensive nonsense ruling the day. Taking that idea seriously, is there a way to negotiate that involves the production of strong pro-gay propaganda art? Could that become the most flattering event & flattering events actually be the crux of struggle? Sounds weird, but maybe worth a shot. Art of the deal…

      • July 5, 2017 at 4:45 pm #4005

        Josh

        Seriously, the bigger problem is that RM doesn’t negotiate at all, and I don’t have a fix for that at the moment. Can’t talk,can be free of violence, can only die is the situation they had to everything they touch. But if they suspected their was a motivation to negotiate then they might think about the possibility. So I wonder whether propaganda art of the type they liked would be motivation – looking around, it seems like they put enormous effort into that, & do not do it anything like an optimal way.

        • July 5, 2017 at 4:53 pm #4006

          Josh

          If they kill you all, or keep offering no life, then you can’t help and/or have no motivation to. That is fact. Relevant?? Can’t hurt to notice that.

          In my dream, the phrase was said by an unknown to me, semi-editor, semi-magical witch in a modern sort of castle, but it felt like she was relaying a lore & that T=true was more relevant than 2.

          • July 5, 2017 at 4:58 pm #4007

            Josh

            Of course there are differences of opinion, and some RM members do indeed feel that global genocide of everything by soldiering/legging gay males is the ultimate flattering monument. But not all agree, & that is a very committal move, as we used to say at CG.

          • July 5, 2017 at 5:06 pm #4008

            Josh

            This was just a waking thought, not a day’s work. My recommendation is to mention the idea as a thought in relevant contexts, if u notice any. Long term mulling might be more receptive than short term.

          • July 5, 2017 at 6:44 pm #4010

            Josh

            What is a pirate preacher anyway? For the RM, grifter/conman was the most fundamental element of that description, but that idea may not scale up that well to ruling a planet. In fact, the entire spirit of being a pirate may not scale up that well to ruling a planet. There is some inherent tension between the guys who first love is ruling planets & the guys who first love is being pirates & the guys who first love is actual butt fucking & the guys who are trying to feel the most validated. Those are actually 4 different teams that don’t notice the difference from day to day. They are experts with pry bars, so they get the idea of prying them apart. Whatever helps with that is helpful to us. My style is to do it with truth.

  • July 5, 2017 at 9:27 pm #4013

    Josh

    U are a sweet princess…and the local expert on making sure u have love for all the best reasons.

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