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  • November 24, 2016 at 1:00 pm #348

    Josh

    I am here digging for all of us – doing my best <Clifford the Big Red Dog> imitation, feeling good or not. Honestly, I care about my friends and love them a lot…no politics in that. I’m happy when they feel happy & when they cry I hope tomorrow will be brighter.

    Thinking about “Ramparts” magazine which I only recently heard of, but which is associated with a kind of pivot point in CIA media dealings, the nature of which is a little mysterious. It seems that the CIA had spies at Ramparts, but unlike other outlets, it didn’t have exec control. It tried to bottle the story that National Student Association was a partial CIA front, but it didn’t quite succeed. That led to a bunch of NYT and CBS News exposes of CIA fronts. But there is reason to believe CIA did have a lot of exec control at those outlets. Ramparts ultimately closed, and many of the writers, who may or may not have been CIA connected, turned to more Conservative politics. Wilford has some original source materials documenting the CIA going after Ramparts to try and mute it – of course they might not be high level & it could be a different story at the top. The question I’m thinking about, but don’t know the answer to, is whether the bloodletting about CIA fronts and false claim it was getting away from that afterwards was CIA plan or something the CIA opposed.

    This piece is suspicious: http://www.city-journal.org/html/ramparts-i-watched-13251.html The guy was able to take over the Ramparts ?NSA story, he soon defected to conservative causes (spending time in Israel), makes a point of saying the CIA programs were really for the good, and says Ramparts crashed because of bad financial mgmt. Maybe Ramparts episode was the start of CIA plan to financially ruin – using ghost editors etc. – every publication where it didn’t have exec control? Would be nice to have data on historical newspaper/tv accounting, but that’s not likely to be widely available.

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  • November 24, 2016 at 3:22 pm #350

    Josh

    One point Babes makes that I agree with is something I’m pretty sure u agree with too – if u are thinking concretely about sex/romance, it’s really inadequate to try and imagine being with an abstraction. Some people like to focus on pictures of people they don’t know & have no connection to, but that was never tempting for me, at any age. Thinking about some kind of special connection works a lot better when you fill in with someone you already feel somehow connected to in a positive way. That much can’t be helped.

  • November 24, 2016 at 10:25 pm #351

    Josh

    I feel like all of our LC rappng friends are being pretty honest. I’m together with u as a couple and together with them as friends. U rap about us as an only couple (here, now) – which is true, healthy and good for u – and they rap about their dreams that feel good to them, or at least a lot better than where we all are right now. There is no need, or real case, for any of you to feel like the other is being unkind or excessively promoting conflict. Best short term path is to read less of each other’s diaries and focus more on shared long term goals & friendship when thinking about each other. Everyone should stoke & try to keep their personal & community hope alive. It’s not an insult when they are not all exactly the same. There’s no dishonesty or dishonor in that.

    • November 25, 2016 at 10:38 am #354

      Josh

      I am trying to keep focus on helpful work and to give u love & good advice…What hurts? Not u & me…we are WEEEE…not our friends…just focus on things that matter!

      • November 25, 2016 at 10:51 am #355

        Josh

        I feel like our deal & our fate is to play out our longshot as best we can. Sure the odds are long, & there is a part of me that feels a moral victory would be causing the CIA to kill me quickly rather than having the FBI radiate me into cancer in my house. But there is always some real chance of victory, & having faith in that & trying as hard as we can is the best way to maximize the chances. So for me, there is no conflict with being honest/open & talking about the future we want. No point squabbling with friends because of CIA/FBI crimes. Why not focus on trying to win as long as we are able to try? We bring our friends with us. We want them & their freedom too. They help too. No conflict.

  • November 25, 2016 at 6:45 am #352

    Josh

    I like & and appreciate that, in life, you are always game for looking at new styles to try and new influences to incorporate. That forever young is a true way to go.

    http://www.chessgames.com/perl/chessuser?uname=Eyal

  • November 26, 2016 at 7:35 am #372

    Josh

    Anna focuses on wanting a completely compelling, unconditionally loving, abosorbing/obsessive, sexual love relationship. I know she values family and friends too, but that key relationship is where here focus goes first. For you and Flor, the sense of being alone in the world and wanting to keep your important, key people close to you in a supportive way is more front and center. I try to validate both flavors – not because of politics, but because I think they are both good.

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  • November 26, 2016 at 2:34 pm #377

    Josh

    Sometimes I miss the days when handles went with people…but a lot of things are for the better now too.

    http://www.chessgames.com/perl/kibitzing?kid=G1848578&reply=280

  • November 28, 2016 at 8:12 am #388

    Josh

    It’s better to focus on my positive hopes and future dreams than to have none, and better to have some positive growth strategy than to have none in focus. U may see that someone else’s available strategy is not totally positive for u or totally realistic about future reality, and be troubled by that. I feel u shouldn’t be troubled because it is actually meant sincerely in the heart and the future can be/will necessarily be adjusted in a lot of ways.

  • November 30, 2016 at 2:28 pm #408

    Josh

    That person in the background is actually an FBI guy in a wig who is operating both the Obama dummy and the Dylan dummy at the same time. “This tech is so cool!” 🙂

    • November 30, 2016 at 2:38 pm #409

      Josh

      This is why the FBI never shows fatigue…it’s not the legions of faceless replacements who can be thrown at even the most trivial tasks…it’s the feeling of what a privilege and honor it is simply to be able to operate cool tech toys for criminal uncle…

  • December 1, 2016 at 3:09 am #411

    Josh

    Friend’s personal growth isn’t a civil/legal/political/public issue. It’s personal/private/family issue. I don’t want anything to hurt u, but I don’t see that the other prisoners’ diaries need to be taken as hurtful, even if I happen to read them for one reason or another. U say “I quizzed her and she avowed that it was true wish & not just fantasy.” Ok, so it’s true wish, but u are involved & upset. Because u worry about us? I say, “No, my focus is on us. Making us best.” U say “She knows how I feel so she shouldn’t want anything that would make me unhappy like that. She should respect my dream/happiness/plan.” Because that is a mutual respect? Or how does that work?

  • December 1, 2016 at 3:57 am #412

    Josh

    ownership = <to be THE THING that matters to my love and is responsible for her(he)>

    Sometimes greed is good. But mostly when u are really going to spend it.

  • December 2, 2016 at 3:13 am #417

    Josh

    It’s a multi-factor family model:

    http://www.archdaily.com/797766/ad-classics-royal-basilica-of-saint-denis-abbot-suger?utm_source=dlvr.it&utm_medium=twitter

  • December 2, 2016 at 3:39 am #418

    Josh

    Love relationship is like the elephant in the paradigm fable. At any moment in time, we each touch one part of it. Whether one counts other people or not, makes it a different element, but the idea is there too. The way u communicate has huge value for me…I see & understand more. That’s like a bigger/better elephant.

    http://www.chessgames.com/perl/kibitzing?kid=P44815&reply=238697
    https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Blind_men_and_an_elephant

  • December 2, 2016 at 12:35 pm #425

    Josh

    One of the girls in that video looks a bit like Kateryna Lahno

    I’m glad for the humor and the slice of life perspectives. I wish it was easy for us to share more easily, today. Gotta keep marching…

  • December 2, 2016 at 8:49 pm #431

    Josh

    Babes’ queue turn earlier was funny, partly because of the sample order I viewed, and partly it felt like a parallel but humorous version of your earlier e-mail style, and the May day reference seemed thematically correct.

  • December 4, 2016 at 10:53 pm #440

    Josh

    Most of the handles had multiple meanings with multiple affects attached to that. So one would have to go back to old writings to discover what sort of mood went with each. On top of that, it’s easy to discover new, patterns that weren’t in the original conception.

    In the period where I was reading <chrisowen> it seemed like kind of a fragmented personality, which would go with the idea of multiple people in the wrong situation. Maybe there was a different feel in 2003 or something, or maybe not.

  • December 5, 2016 at 8:23 am #441

    Josh

    I feel called to repeat my previous observations that it is much more helpful for each of you to spend time talking with honest, supportive friends, rather than listening to the lies of professional torturers, sadists, psychopathic black ops scum, who only deliver info designed to harm you in some way. This reality should be clear enough by now, and it is a real weakness not to be able to get our act together enough to make it true.

    • December 5, 2016 at 10:55 am #444

      Josh

      I point out that u are listening to too much, always intentionally harmful, propaganda and u could be talking to friends instead. That’s my perception – through the noise. Right or wrong, it’s not a comment on weakening our commitment or “opening” our relationship. Why think in those directions? That doesn’t make sense to me. Our love doesn’t rest on some kind of applause meter. And, in reality, this comment is mostly about taking care of my A. The structure of your slavery encourages u to think in terms of emotional gestalts rather than structured linear logic, & one effect of that is a vulnerability to propaganda/psyops. It’s good to a get a healthier set of habits to insulate yourself. My habits…I am trying to fine tune, every day while trying to get work done under a withering onslaught. U can see since Aug…I got a desktop setup, I’m headed towards a website, I’m learning PHP, I’m using Zotero, headed towards 1000 references of which I’ve read and taken notes on maybe a few hundred so far, and catalogued the rest in bins that give me a good idea of what I might find in them. I’ve dealt with a lot of different defensive issues, just to keep going every day. Yes, it’s wicked slow, and frustrating to watch, I’m sure. But it is a sincere illustration of the kind of effort I can manage at the moment. Not limited by health…just limited by being in the middle of an EMF firing squad/artillery range and being isolated in terms of credibility with a completely unbelievable tale about why this is happening, how I know that, why anyone else should really care much. U went years & years & years with a wrong story, having access to a lot of inside sources, but with the net effect that they simply supported phony lies u were being led to believe. Clearly, the propaganda sources didn’t help u overall, & nowadays they give a much higher priority to being harmful & never helpful. Did they buy homes across the street from me for u to watch in order to keep u happily slaving, or were they potential bases for killing me, assuming I would leave my house more often? Maybe both, or maybe something else. In any case, it wasn’t a perk. Nothing will ever be a perk from those sources.

  • December 5, 2016 at 8:59 am #442

    Josh

    It is not too must to ask any of you to be able to agree to politely disagree about what should happen after our future great victory over overwhelming/impossible odds. You can manage that.

  • December 5, 2016 at 10:22 am #443

    Josh

    Thank God for the discipline not to over-eat (even strategically) and to keep resisting Hitler with pictures. This momentum will carry us to our glorious future?

    In truth, I am trying my best to find the smartest task/focus combinations that will be most beneficial. There’s A LOT to overcome…

  • December 5, 2016 at 12:01 pm #445

    Josh

    U have to realize…FBI/CIA/whatever have this multi-billion $$$ project measuring its daily progress in things like how well they do at interfering with my daily activities like sleep/work/etc. It’s not some static issue of nature or home to be fixed with any given solution…it’s a war where I am outgunned by immeasurable amounts & their only real check is a preference for not taking risks with outsiders acquiring objective proof of their deeds. Sometimes the flux makes me sleepy directly, sometimes it tires me out with the grind/fluid pressures and sometimes it interferes with getting good sleep, by design…lately, they’ve been using the drain robot with flux sometimes just to get at my feet if that is the best shot available. Try to remember “My champion loves me, but he is really in hell, making the best of it, trying to climb out.”

  • December 7, 2016 at 2:43 pm #461

    Josh

    Is EV saying that pic was chosen as unflattering?

    • December 7, 2016 at 2:50 pm #462

      Josh

      EV’s brow is closer to the Shein model & u want to use my rent money to buy cocaine??

  • December 7, 2016 at 9:20 pm #466

    Josh

    I’m not really up for <debates about the future mode> tonight…more focused on trying to get some things done, & move forward in different ways. I feel like moving forward is the #1 problem to solve for ALL of us. I also see that sometimes each of u are hung up on finding and/or keeping love as the most emotionally relevant issue, especially while doing work you don’t need to think too much about. So I suggest, in the spirit of looking for a relevant exercise & useful topic, try to think about what you know from each other’s point of view and work out “solutions” in the sense of <this could be what each of us is hoping for in the future that doesn’t imply big unhappiness for the others>. That doesn’t mean agreeing or everyone getting their wishes to come true – that’s probably impossible. But I think satisficing in that way, at least as an exercise, would a) give something to reflect on/pass time, b) generate more empathy, c) lower levels of conflict. It isn’t necessary to discuss these thoughts out loud or to agree with each other about self-perceptions. Rather, I feel like everyone does better if they can focus their faith and dreams on a promising future that doesn’t feel like a conflict with friends. I have my own versions of that, which I’ve been pretty open about. You all don’t always agree with my perceptions, but having them, and feeling like I’m a loyal friend, makes me feel better, and not conflicted. So I recommend that, as worth a try.

  • December 8, 2016 at 7:51 am #467

    Josh

    One could believe, for example, that you will find true love when you get the chance…because you are sweet, loving person with a lot to offer who is super ready for a love relationship. Not with anyone who comes along…with a special, good match. Is that a lot of people? No, but it’s a still a bunch. Your talents and your friends will help you find the right person. Or maybe you believe you already found the perfect match? Then believe that somehow that will work out. The biggest hurdle is believing you are going to get out from the prison of Darth Vader/CIA/FBI who have cruelly murdered so, so many good people before, just for the benefit of their private fascist empire and having their private laugh at the idea that if they are secret and disciplined enough, then the sick assholes always win in the end. They feel like they’ve been proving that for 60 years or so and keep going for a few hundred more. Believing we are going to win that fight takes serious faith. Believing in finding and keeping true love afterwards is comparatively easy. Faith in yourself and your friends is a good thing. What I am really trying to say is that you can find a way to have faith, today, and not compromise your emotions and what feels true. Heartfelt emotions aren’t wrong, but our future is always uncertain, and, for that reason, there is a big benefit to being able to embrace uncertainty/disjunction/multiple paths with a good feeling and resolute intensity. Think “Somehow, this will work out for me, and I will do my best to make it work out right for me. That’s true, even if I can’t see today, exactly how it is going to go down.”

  • December 9, 2016 at 12:23 pm #481

    Josh

    It’s always a joy for me to see you smiling.

    Rhetorical question for thought study: boldness, freedom of action, & confidence are best suited to which of the following states of mind:

    1) serene tranquility & awarneness

    2) sadness and anger

    3) loneliness & despair

    4) dreamlike arousal

    ??

    If 1) earns at least a tie for first, then we try to help you feel more confident every day!

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  • December 9, 2016 at 1:10 pm #482

    Josh

    Being 100% honest, even with ourselves, about ALL of our emotions…is a rare thing. Most people are not capable of that. Most people would not be able to emotionally afford the luxury of that consciousness even if they were capable. But…moving in that direction by aligning consciousness with reality is almost always a good life plan. Forgive our own misc. weaknesses and occasional pettiness and animal nature. Identify the people and activities that are most rewarding and make our happiness. Find the individuals and kind of people we interact best with. All those are good things, and my point here is to emphasize that attaining them is an actual achievement.

    • December 9, 2016 at 1:13 pm #483

      Josh

      I guess I also wanted to emphasize that folks shouldn’t be criticized for working out a path and sometimes changing this or that attribute/feeling along the way.

  • December 9, 2016 at 9:36 pm #488

    Josh

    While we were far apart, before we ever got a chance to meet face to face, and even at a time which was not during one of our peaks of daily interaction…you upgraded your sense of how compatible we could be as a couple. I’m flattered & glad for the friendship/warmth, but also sorry for whatever bad feelings of being left out or missing the boat came from that change. I feel it is right for you to have faith that a) we are going to take our best shot at getting you out of prison, 2) we will be close in some way then, 3) there are lots of other cool compatible people in the world, you will meet some of them, and some will feel truly worthy of your affection. For all those reasons, you can find and put faith in positive change.

    Also, when you and Anna both say that I understand you best, from way over here…I’m sure that can’t be true in every way…that would be sort of impossible. There are other fields of friendship that are lying fallow, because of hurt feelings, rivalry, or stress. I’m not sure I understood the question part of the interrogative, but maybe that’s part of the answer.

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  • December 10, 2016 at 8:18 am #491

    Josh

    We try to recognize what is emotionally the most healthy way to be for ourselves, encourage our friends to do that as well, and try to respect their conclusions about that…at least most of the time. That’s what I am doing. I support you doing that too. So I don’t feel conflicted, even when the visions don’t match up.

    One can ask “Why does A feel like a more emotionally healthy way to be than B?” but often those questions have subtle answers that are tricky to articulate, with or without personal politics. Adopting a position towards that reality of something akin to <I’m going to be a skeptic about all of that until I see it spelled out explicitly and credibly> is naive and extreme. I try to point out the other day that personal relationships are not a convex space – if situation X and situation Y are both okay, that doesn’t mean any combination on the line in between them is okay as well. People just don’t work that way. Everyone searching for their perfect “bubba”…

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  • December 10, 2016 at 2:34 pm #492

    Josh

    Money, secrecy, and power seem to model & predict all these secret crimes, including murder. Lies about sex do not seem to any predictive value to the model…rejected by the “F-test”.

  • December 13, 2016 at 11:32 pm #510

    Josh

    I am sharing, every day, most all of what I am doing and the thoughts/info I have that seem interesting or relevant. That must count for something. I try to guess the changes that you all go through and where you’ve been in the past.

    I think Dick Russell wrote his first conspiracy related book in the mid-1970s, so he had been digging for a long time, and accumulated a lot of good leads.

    • December 13, 2016 at 11:55 pm #512

      Josh

      I do want you to feel that I want to connect. It’s true. When I’m feeling sick or like I haven’t gotten far enough or worried about this or that, I often lack a good way to operationalize that wish. But it is true. Folks need an environment to be friendly in. You can see how Riley and K are people in my life too, in very different ways. Every one is a different way.

  • December 15, 2016 at 5:01 pm #533

    Josh

    IMO, u are getting you chain yanked a little bit, partly for amusement. But also partly for ideology. U wish it to be understood that I am the big priority for u and all the other friends are a distantly lower place. But for them, u want it the other way around, and u want to say that is fair & just because of context & history, while they feel that their context is slavery & loneliness & uncertain future. So I try to get u to feel good about us & them and relax a little bit about their supposed disloyalty.

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  • December 15, 2016 at 10:57 pm #534

    Josh

    Deapan Literalism Society

    http://www.chessgames.com/perl/kibitzing?kid=FCAFE&reply=191897

  • December 16, 2016 at 3:20 pm #539

    Josh

    I try to promote a faith that true friends & doing good things both matter a lot and that true friends take care of each other, just because. I never try to say those are the only things that matter or tell others what matters most. Still, it’s good to progress where one can, and learning not to let politics dominate personal feelings is a kind of good progress too. The idea that you would think I was callous or unfair wouldn’t sit well with me. So I thought about it as objectively as I could and decided it was not true. That was not the course, history, or reason of things. True is that I kept getting to know you better and like you more and more as a friend, true is that eventually, after a long interval, Anna and I got back together, and true is that we didn’t make a virtual-only no-speech couple. I felt those things were all independent.

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  • December 18, 2016 at 2:03 am #560

    Josh

    These images show why the Trump Pence ticket inspires people 🙂


    Trump

    More Trump

    Trump?

    Taxi! For Indiana!

  • December 30, 2016 at 7:58 pm #685

    Josh

    “How can I help?”

    • December 30, 2016 at 8:17 pm #686

      Josh

      When everyone starts feeling lonely and stressed, it’s better to think of how you can help each other than to think of how you are too overwhelmed to make that “sacrifice”. I mean, in the medium and long term, friendship ends up being a big benefit and not a sacrifice. It’s okay to insist on it being constructive and not require sharing everything.

  • January 1, 2017 at 3:05 am #711

    Josh

    I’d like to know which parts are true aside from the “hell of a mess”.

  • January 1, 2017 at 3:12 am #712

    Josh

    Outsiders don’t have as many good clues about how criminal and fraudulent so much of the official story is. On the inside, seeing a chunk of that, it should be easier to achieve clarity. Nonsense can be rebutted. You can ask to talk to an authority who is able to demonstrate being legally in charge.

  • January 9, 2017 at 4:12 am #781

    Josh

    I thought the Rooney goal I saw on Twitter yesterday was pretty great. He moved to just the right spot, took a pass that was 2 ft. up in the air, and precisely redirected it, at an oblique angle, for a medium long shot in the far corner of the goal. Doing that with Gretzky like instincts and frequency is top talent.

    p.s. I just posted that here as a joke!

  • January 9, 2017 at 5:59 am #782

    Josh

    What was the real reason why “Jan” stuck as a nickname?

    • January 9, 2017 at 6:07 am #783

      Josh

      Is it correct to say that this is, in many ways, an artifact of being told, for most of your life, that were a part of a (fictional) communal society?

      That’s a tough adjustment to un-adjust from. So I do sympathize a lot. No matter what happens, I hope you know that is my sincere feeling.

  • January 19, 2017 at 7:08 pm #844

    Josh

    Growing up, I had a magazine size paperback which was called something like “Guitar Player Magazine’s 100 Greatest Guitarists of All Time”. I didn’t take it seriously as a ranking, but I used it to help find different things to listen too. Reviews in Audio Magazine and Stereo Review were like that for me in HS too. It was more work to find things before the Internet. A list like that tried to include some of the most famous names from each recognized musical genre, so it was good for getting exposure to different genres.

    A few moments ago I started wondering whether you all had seen that magazine and were hinting about it back in CG days. It wasn’t present in my mind at that time – the reality of your knowing things from my youth wasn’t a possibility I could conceive of at that time.

  • January 19, 2017 at 7:14 pm #845

    Josh

    Very honest path, I think is true

    • January 19, 2017 at 7:29 pm #846

      Josh

      U feel that u were honest in your heart, even when u were not doing the right or perfect thing or explaining all your thoughts and feelings. Today, u should feel good about us & about your friends. I can’t always tell from hear whether something is bugging u a lot in the back of your head or if u are picking at a scab that itches a little. Either way, I felt I should soothe misplaced feeling of intrigue.

  • January 19, 2017 at 9:24 pm #847

    Josh

    Modern missionaries tend to be pretty well educated and upwardly mobile. Some may be incurious, but many are not. People get on different kinds of paths, depending on where they start.

  • January 20, 2017 at 8:13 am #851

    Josh

    True. Civil war vets/heroes had a lot of real anxiety to conquer. Depression is tough too. In civil life, in war, in close friendships, and in love relationships…there are different sets of rules and expectations for being big. It’s right to honor that.

  • January 21, 2017 at 9:42 am #857

    Josh

    Was this meant to include real world news content – esp the part about “departing”?

  • January 22, 2017 at 2:11 pm #865

    Josh

    U just have to have faith.

    I know u have faith in me…u are not sure what faith in friends should mean and could mean. I think that’s attainable.

    http://www.businessinsider.com/save-your-relationship-after-cheating-2017-1?utm_source=feedly&utm_medium=webfeeds

  • January 23, 2017 at 11:32 pm #876

    Josh

    Lately, I’ve been spending less time looking at LCs, and seeing a lot of Anna when I do. Haven’t noticed anything I thought was EV for a while – the strangers all seem unfamiliar of late…many were guys. Sometimes I’ll glance to see if they mention anything novel, but that doesn’t happen in practice.

  • February 1, 2017 at 7:19 pm #928

    Josh

    I care a lot. I’ll always care a lot. One thing I can say about last 6 months is that it was a relative improvement for me in terms of trying to work and do something useful most all of the time. It’s harder to sustain that on a forever basis while fighting off abuse…but I’m actually getting better at doing that. Not shirking or shying away from anything for emotional reasons. Obviously, I still spend a lot of time/effort defending myself and trying (with modest success/tenacity) to keep existing. It goes without saying that not every I try will pay off, but you will see me move quickly to the next thing when I see a roadblock.

  • February 4, 2017 at 7:42 pm #950

    Josh

    Everyone has their own best style, which can/should be good..unrivaled in its way.

    I’m interested in this after reading some in other places:

    Vitamin B17 Controversy: Poison or Cancer Treatment?

    A bunch of links claimed a conspiracy to reject the efficacy.

  • February 8, 2017 at 8:23 am #967

    Josh

    The psychology of being in a group of fellow travelers, at least partially, affects people. Even the hardened pros.

  • February 8, 2017 at 7:44 pm #968

    Josh

    It worked out for me to do a lot of planning around those early family trips because I would figure out things my parents would not, and also it helps to keep the kids involved/happy. The shape/skyline of the hotel reminded me of planning a trip where we visited the cousins in Atlanta and also drove to Florida. I worked out that “Ormond Beach” was next to Daytona Beach, but less expensive and less polluted. Easy drive to Orlando, so we could visit Disney World as day trips.

  • February 11, 2017 at 3:24 am #990

    Josh

    What can I do to help make things better in the short term?

    I advocate that all my friends stick together and support each other. We are in a struggle we didn’t choose to be in, but it’s here. It’s a big cause – not just for us. Long odds – not just for us. It goes on and on – not just for us.

    When I feel the most pressed, then I’m more tactical in terms of thinking about my biggest problem(s) and how to address them. What can I fix first that will help the most? It wears one down to have opponents with semi-infinite resources and people that will keep trying harder to be more abusive, next week and next month. So we all try to find personal, psychological motivations within ourselves to help feel better and hopeful and keep going. I know that part is extra tough for you. That’s okay. We all have strengths and weaknesses. But I suggest that finding little goals that work for you can help you feel better anyway.

  • February 11, 2017 at 12:13 pm #995

    Josh

    Who/where is “Harvard law prof”? Is that a CIA woman? Me?

  • February 15, 2017 at 3:08 pm #1066

    Josh

    If we win, then loneliness/isolation/boredom won’t ever be an issue for any of us. Things will be different and easier.

    • February 15, 2017 at 3:15 pm #1067

      Josh

      We’ll be close too. This concept of winning doesn’t fix every problem. I can easily imagine having cancer or some other issue. Still, it fixes a lot of things, gives a lot of opportunities,and an emotional reset.

      • February 15, 2017 at 4:30 pm #1069

        Josh

        Those points about faith, apply in a lot of different ways. You can have faith that you will keep finding ways to get closer to someone or some people you like being close to, and that this will be much, much easier if you are free.

  • February 15, 2017 at 6:21 pm #1070

    Josh

    John Kiriakou’s Twitter page points here in addition to his personal site. Anna is making the page. So why not do things that help us with regular people, not cryptic thoughts?

  • February 15, 2017 at 7:00 pm #1071

    Josh

    Being consciously good and unconsciously good with someone else are different categories. Full-time friend is comparatively easier. Wanting to grow and being able to grow should always be valued.

  • February 15, 2017 at 10:12 pm #1072

    Josh

    Only 430 tweets. I called it CIA/MI6. Probably I should change the name to include FBI?

    https://twitter.com/gwitkin

    • February 15, 2017 at 10:14 pm #1073

      Josh

      The theory that Flor was first trained in LCs by an FBI person is looking good to me in terms of style. Maybe coincidence, but I guess not.

      • February 15, 2017 at 10:23 pm #1074

        Josh

        “Laura McEllvey” Why I am suddenly thinking of that name?

        • February 15, 2017 at 10:51 pm #1075

          Josh

          The World has a big need to learn more about how the FBI uses children and what the long-term consequences of that are for the young assets and the people they encounter.

          • February 15, 2017 at 11:00 pm #1076

            Josh

            Is it true that the FBI profiles & actively looks for victims of child sexual abuse – not to prosecute the abuse but rather to identify people who can be manipulated and will make good, useful, pliant informants??

            I’m thinking that rumor is true.

  • February 15, 2017 at 11:08 pm #1077

    Josh

    I’m not sure about my waking musings, but I thought “Efran/m kill lie” was promising, though probably unintentional. “No imp act” might even be real.

  • February 15, 2017 at 11:19 pm #1078

    Josh

    The movie “The Desk Set” was released in 1957. Was the story about replacing the research desk with computer related to some actual lie that was being told to some U.S. companies about off-site Spook slave labor around that time?

  • February 15, 2017 at 11:22 pm #1079

    Josh

    When did the ghost editors start working on corporate reports?

  • February 16, 2017 at 1:53 am #1082

    Josh

    I recognize these faces, but can’t think of any unusual behavior associated with any of them.

  • February 17, 2017 at 4:09 am #1094

    Josh

    Good job for Flor with the reverse spin. I like it. Let the FBI see how the honest 99% of the world lives.

    • February 17, 2017 at 4:14 am #1095

      Josh

      “Well known mass murderer and wife beater, in an effort to woo the trial judge, finally comes clean about how much he paid his lawyers. Is that going to appease us? Not f-ing likely…But it’s news today!!”

    • February 17, 2017 at 5:17 am #1096

      Josh

      We can all help inspire each other. What’s the point? They are spending $$$ to support political capital and using political capital and $$$ to abuse us. So burning as much of each is helpful. Moreover, we can’t do that by ourselves, but we can inspire others who have motivation and cause. I look for others.

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