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This topic contains 83 replies, has 1 voice, and was last updated by  josh October 28, 2017 at 4:14 am.

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  • #5792

    josh

    For example…I don’t think this has anything to do with me…but if it is supposed to it’s absurd…they killed everyone here, including my family, and they’ve been painfully assaulting me for over 3 years, so if it was supposed to have anything to do with me, it’s an absurd lie for other people. Better to ignore it.

  • #5795

    josh

    Did u do this one or was it the FBI?

  • #5800

    josh

    I’m not sure what is on your mind. Weren’t u happy to find evidence of Babes. I’d like it whenever I see something from our friends nowadays. I didn’t think she meant to talk about sex. Like u, sometimes she pretends something to get it promoted in the Heine Twitter queue.

  • #5801

    josh

    My mom really can’t help me now, that’s for sure…

  • #5802

    josh

    I told Babes I hoped she would do whatever she could to survive. Really want her to survive. That’s what matters most.

  • #5807

    josh

    I keep us special in all my thoughts. I like u to feel that’s true & something u can rely on.

  • #5808

    josh

    These are the butt-butt boys running the USA today?

  • #5809

    josh

    I found figured out the CSS/design search term I was missing “responsive menu navigation”. Which takes me to various interesting links, especially this one which explains a set of key example forms in a clear way.
    http://responsivenavigation.net/

    I’m wondering about various examples in the context of WordPress themes? Does the traditional breakout into “header”, “sidebar”, and “content” just get in the way of these desings. It is better to put everything in one of those, taking up the entire page, or try to use the media break points to put into a different spot depending??

    • #5810

      josh

      The answer seems to be: All of those sections still share the same CSS/page/layout and can be made to shrink or expand, so there is no technical barrier to implementing any design, any which way. In the context of responsive design with custom menus going in different spots and being conditional hidden the header/footer/sidebar/content area distinction seems like an extra bit of clutter nuisance not buying anything positive, but apparently it doesn’t stop anything either.

  • #5811

    josh

    I don’t know if there is any bottom line to the infinite regress of Heine lying & murder…but I do know that I’ve read countless descriptions of schemes that secretly insert a woman who has had some sort of alt sex ‘in’ to couple with a man as an excuse for murdering him, sometimes secretly replacing his wife or girlfriend with a look alike. This is a common tactic. Seems bizarre to claim that it’s okay to kill a woman just because and a man needed to be duped in that way…but everything about Heine gang is bizarre. Point I’m making here is that given the ubiquity of that strategy, it doesn’t seem that only being an a straight ‘A’ man or hetero or in some relationship was traditionally sufficient as Heine grounds for murder and only having some sort of secret connection to a woman with some dildo experience is not a saving grace – since they go to lengths to insure the opposite as part of their murder scheme. Nowadays, I feel like they kill everybody. But the locals wanted to clarify that the lesbian story wouldn’t have been any help.

    • #5822

      josh

      Going back to the thought that Heine has a kind of vernacular criminal genius, evolved over centuries, and part of that genius is a system that allows different criminal gangs to cooperate -e.g. don’t rate on each other, don’t spill common secrets, mostly avoid killing each other – maybe the logic of the thing is that guys who only have sex with guys in secret lairs is a common element of Heine gang, so if they refrain from killing only men without seeing some other kind of sex (they can kill women & children) then that was a tradition to help prevent starting murder chain wars with other gangs.

  • #5812

    josh

    I’m adjusting to another upgrade in the EMF gun strength. It’s tough, but impressive the way they seem to be able to just keep increasing the raw amplitude of their signal, step by step. If they had started with the current version in Jan/Feb 2014 I would have been dead quickly.

  • #5813

    josh

    Was a guy? I have to look again. I wasn’t being that attentive.

  • #5814

    josh

    U are 1000 times faster than me at many kinds of progress, but not every kind…we still not over a big nothing fear? Kiss, kiss doesn’t help (enough)?

  • #5815

    josh

    Why so much freedom here? Is “he” gone again, or can u do that anytime?

  • #5816

    josh

    U r special special person I love being wired into. Good. Important.

    • #5817

      josh

      U put a lot of emphasis on finding the healthy habits that help one be their best. The us should be part of that too…help u feel like u are a big winner…automaticity isn’t the answer…love is a big part of the answer.

  • #5818

    josh

    In 2012, u didn’t love me in a way that let u communicate what was important to u, what was hurting, what was injuring u, what u hoped for, what u feared, etc. I see, now it was a lot of love and hurt and other negative things at the same time, but some other kind of love was missing then.

  • #5819

    josh

    People with talent get enslaved & put to work…I seem to have a very pathetic and temporary talent…

  • #5823

    josh

    Wee a got a new meaning for Jar Head!

    • #5824

      josh

      Anna talking about this virtual cross dressing situation:
      https://twitter.com/AmberSherlock

      • #5825

        josh

        Some discussion going on about whether this editor really gets to spy on the sex life of a B, or whether he is making up stories based on a misunderstanding. I go with the latter, but either is possible.

  • #5826

    josh

    I’m not great at remembering dreams, unless they wake me up. Waking thoughts I’ll hold onto if they are interesting. Most interesting today: noticing that the Billy Bragg title “Talking with the Taxman about Poetry” works in keys A-D, but it is most interesting in C,D key, suggesting that a C guy replaced a B who experimented with real sex. I’m wondering if the B guy had a musical career of any note before that.

  • #5833

    josh

    I’ve been hurling bushels of plastic into the brink…sort of literally. Hard to block so many flux firehoses. They focus a lot on this seat…so I sit down…uncomfortable…get up, do some treatment…sit down…uncomfortable…get up, do some treatment…sit down…day after day. But a lot today.

  • #5834

    josh

    Babes wants to be helpful/constructive. U shouldn’t worry.

  • #5837

    josh

    It’s hard for us to make a plan about dealing with supremely evil people, destroying the entire planet, holding you prisoner, killing my family, assaulting me in my house, removing the local police force, controlling most of the World’s media, Congress, govt., etc. What’s our plan? What does plan mean in a situation like that? I have a strategy, which is basically to fight back in whatever ways I can and hope other people somehow decide to do the same thing in enough numbers to matter.

  • #5838

    josh

    I am feeling sweet on u. I don’t waver on that. The physical quality of the feeling is different depending on whether I am being sickened by EMF at an instant in time or feeling relatively okay. That doesn’t change any feeling about u.

  • #5840

    josh

    I learned a painful lesson last Sat. about how the FBI will exploit a takeout order placed at either a plausibly busy time or a time when they are predicting I will order. Will try harder now to keep it unpredictable, at off peak times.

  • #5841

    josh
  • #5844

    josh

    You’re ruminating and the CIA is getting to u a bit…that’s normal, under the circumstances. I don’t feel like reviewing the things u keep forgetting…I see now that u forgot because u were almost blacked out with stress, and I see there was a chunk of time where Emma understood a lot more about how I was important to u than I did. I understand now…and I’m happy that at least the ‘us’ part of reality is great without effort, even when everything else is more horrible & dystopian than the the worst movie/novel one has ever encountered. Still, it would be easier for u to accept responsibility for becoming cold and walking away decisively – in several dimensions at one – with no explanation, even when that wasn’t exactly what u were feeling or how u construed the situation. U had doubts that decades of your life had been a lie/mistake, but all I saw was that months of interaction had been a lie/mistake that I had no nice explanation for at the time.

  • #5845

    josh

    It’s infinitely harder to connect now…there are always assholes between us, being paid to be as nasty and asshole like as possible (this is the true essence of CIA and FBI- a professional piece of evil toxic shit – always required to be a homosexual man who participates in murder without scruples and expresses disdain and hate for outsiders)…you are blocked from writing, I am attacked constantly, we see death/murder all around us….still we manage, somehow. We got a lot better at that, and grew a lot closer.

    I don’t like the reality of being in a nasty fight I am eventually going to lose, 100% of the time…but that’s the only script going here. I never blame u.

  • #5850

    josh

    Re: “Love stinks”…it’s funny that now, end of 2017, u want confidence about the not u I could see or know about of 2012 who told me we would never speak and then walked away with a lot of cold rudeness. What can I say? I’m not sure anything makes sense to say about it, so it’s hard to see the issue. But I recall that in late Spring, Summer of 2011, I had realized that OD didn’t exist as such, and I was disappointed, because if she had, I would probably have made the trip to India to try and find her.

    • #5852

      josh

      Honestly I don’t understand. All these things don’t make sense:
      1) it’s so long ago & unrelated to current context or problems or good or bad realities
      2) you keep insisting on what I feel is a fictional take on events that completely ignores your role and messes up the timeline
      3) I had gone 9 months or so trying in every way I could to see how we could move forward and you kept telling me there was no way, without explanation, and then you acted to move to nothing, decisively.
      4) So you say now that I wasn’t trying hard or catering?? I don’t understand what that would have meant. There was no path, & no explanation, and you weren’t honest with me.

      But you feel like arguing today, or some other days? About what? I can’t see any points on your side. The only point that would make sense is that you wanted a break so I should have gone off attention – but that isn’t how you feel. You are saying the opposite, which makes no sense.

  • #5851

    josh

    When did I write about “the blanket”? 2011 or probably early 2012.

  • #5853

    josh

    My focus *today* was/is – that u were feeling bad, feeling bad reminded u of 2012 when u were feeling really bad because we weren’t together. That’s not true now, or close, but somehow it reminded u and got u to worry about something or other. Like I’ve pointed out before, the worries that u remember are not very tied in to the historical reality.

    • #5854

      josh

      If u feel like ruminating & feeling bad about unhealed wounds – I know u have a lifetime of unhealed wounds to feel bad about – that’s okay. But try not to let black site assholes push u into imagining unreal things. Old, unhealed rivalries hurt because of a real life denied by assholes. This is true for so many in women. But seeing it as true in others doesn’t help…feeling connected to an indy, a real person, helps….In 2012, I wanted u to ask me for things, and u didn’t feel like u could. U felt like we had come as close as we would be able to, and then we were going to drift apart, and that hurt like hell. Then, somehow, the situation changed, but the memories still hurt…because the physical reality hasn’t changed enough, and seeing what the CIA/FBI really are, and what the world today really is – genocidal assholes running the US/world and methodically murdering almost everyone who isn’t a sick asshole like them…is scary & depressing. I can’t put a smiley face, but I plan to keep going…

  • #5855

    josh

    Messing with other people’s code often becomes tricky. Writing fresh code for task with corner cases one has not yet understood also becomes tricky. Best sort of fluid interface…does it matter? Yes/no. Did I figure out how to do somethings better? Yes. Was it worth it? No, practically nothing is every worth it in development – a small percentage of things are and people get rich or famous or at least self-satisfied. The correct first 10 tasks here are/were…? Hmmm. It’s hard to get to the bottom of this problem. Most famous edited accounts on Twitter are murder victims? I’m only alive because I’m an anonymous pet for amusement and battering? My list of IndyNews was good for accelerating the pace of those particular people being killed/replaced??? I can’t grow a circle of concerned people because CIA/FBI capacity to kill/replace will always be greater than my rate of growth???

    In spite of all that, I feel like I am paying attention to improving practices to get more done more quickly in the amount of non-sick, focus time I can grab each day. I’m not going to beat myself up by comparison to someone who isn’t being assaulted all day. I just try to do the best with what I can manage.

    • #5856

      josh

      I actually meant to post the above to the All My Friends Are Special category.

  • #5859

    josh

    My intuitive psychological read says that https://twitter.com/LorenRaeDeJ wouldn’t pin that tweet with the baby if she was reading in key in her profile and the tweet. The closer one has to fit, the more likely they are to be from outside.

    What do u think? I hope she would read my reply and put 2+2 together, but I doubt she even gets to see it.

  • #5860

    josh

    That guy on Disqus sounded like a Comey talking about being a gay sub. Perhaps that is not correct…I was surprised because I haven’t run into that before.

  • #5861

    josh

    I’ll try to do things that will make u feel more proud of me. The main battlefield continues to be EMF, where there is no credit to be had win or lose…only waste and suffering. Besides that there are the ongoing murders to feel bad about every day…I can’t just say “That’s a distraction”. Nope, that’s murder and the end of humanity. The bulk of the B’s and C’s who pretend it’s not real because they are not seeing the blood are crap.

  • #5863

    josh

    FBI works hard to keep me feeling yucky…upgrade the guns, slice through the shield walls on an angles or from N different directions. Tonight it is NNE angle through the west wall, WSW angle through the North wall, and NNW angle through the East wall. I need to get in a routine of laying down more to stop spinning and then popping up quickly without falling asleep for a long time…which is tricky when I am short of actual quality sleep.

  • #5864

    josh

    I wish to respect my visual image of Riley. Sadly, it’s one of the few things I have left from that very important & key episode in my life.

    • #5865

      josh

      I didn’t mean not to refer to Riley. I’m just saying let her rest in peace, without making her image some twisted Heine error recycled creation. Whatever that is it, isn’t my Riley, and I don’t want to replace my Riley with a crime focus.

      • #5866

        josh

        Ok, I say politely “Please don’t go out of your way to look for pictures that could be a weird Spook replacement mess for the legacy of my sadly deceased daughter.”

  • #5867

    josh

    U can impose editorial standards for truthiness and get them to spend resources going around u. War sucks, but sometimes, when all one can be is a punching bag, it’s better to be hitting back a little than doing nothing. I’m grossed out by a world of temporarily elite people just riding the Heine bus and doing nothing about the genocide they know, in the back of their minds, is happening, making a sick mockery of their entire public pretension and discourse.

  • #5868

    josh

    The Heine really took over this PHP community. They even have custom messages for corner cases:

    http://php-di.org/

    “No framework? It works too, have a look at this demo application. Learn more.”

  • #5870

    josh

    CIA editor writing in key…first time I’ve read one acknowledge that the woman she is having dildo sex with is not a lesbian and only there because her man was killed and she was taken hostage.

  • #5871

    josh

    Wa shi n gton Red ski’ns

    Makes one glad the team usually sucks.

  • #5872

    josh

    There’s a kind of sickening boredom to only hearing, year after the year, from the professionally cruel, vicious, and criminal. It’s not even personal…it’s a boring job to be vicious murdering assholes in giants teams of putrid scum. They work shifts, follow their offensive orders/scripts, and then go to their personal scumbag life which has nothing to do with the script except for the fact that both are criminal and scummy. But there is no personal content in any of it to prop one’s eyes open with toothpicks. Just boring FBI SS/Gestapo death snooze.

  • #5873

    josh

    The FBI is on an organizational mission to continue constant escalation of their awfulness and abuse until we are both dead. So far, we’ve done a pretty good job of resisting. Hasn’t been that easy. Trying to get a few things done at the same time makes it a little harder, but gives more hope.

  • #5874

    josh

    We’re good. I’m loving u all the time. We’re a lot closer than we used to be…not every minute of every day, but almost all the time.

  • #5875

    josh

    I’m getting EMF fried. Sitting and ignoring it isn’t helping. Need to lay down for a bit to unspin so I can be more precise about which spot to shield first/next.

    • #5876

      josh

      They’ve got a triangle going from close range with with Tesla van and 2 gas powered “barbecues”.

  • #5877

    josh

    jquery.mmenu – https://www.npmjs.com/package/jquery.mmenu

    This looks like a good example/base for me to check out and use regarding nav menus – open source, based on jquery, looks good, lots of functionality, on github, mobile first design, uptodate, and has a flexible wordpress version for comparison.

    • #5878

      josh

      I also picked up a useful heuristic for the npm website – it is huge – sort of like the javascript world of github – and it works better to change the default search order from “best” (however they determine that) to “most popular”.

  • #5880

    josh

    Hard to know, but this might be an example of an in person who didn’t die with her pack and is alone now, knowing, and resisting easy hits:
    https://twitter.com/DaisyLuther

  • #5882

    josh

    The Fastest

    • #5883

      josh

      I wonder whether u were able to find the right picture instantly and how long u had to wait for me to reload the page.

  • #5884

    josh

    Was there a back story to the smoker girl (who played the bass)?

  • #5887

    josh

    We can try to formulate.

    I want to do Task A…

    Q1: Is Task A something one might pay some sort of professional to do? If no, it’s probably fairly quick and easy. If yes, then it might be harder.

    Q2: Am I trained as a professional to do task A? Would it make sense for me to pay someone to do it? If the answer to both is “No”, how long would it take me to learn to be semi-pro in this area? The answer to that is somewhere between 2 weeks and 10 years depending on how big the area is.

    Q3: Do I really need to do this task or should I skip it or find another way to go where I want to go? What if I don’t know what the ways are of if there is any path? That’s not a business situation, but what if it’s a life situation? It’s tough, but how can I do better? A: Learn to pick paths where you leave a trail of concrete things that were created and documented, even if they were not at all sufficient or relevant to where you were actually planning on going. But what if you realize it’s not relevant way before you finished the little thing you were waking on? Should you quit then and move on to a different path? It depends.

    These are tough judgments when one doesn’t know the answers. Most people “solve” them by only working for other people who give them orders about what to do. Anyone on their own with some difficult goals is going to look like rubber tech neck.

    But I need to get a lot better while I am being tortured and blocked from all communications with people who are not sick murdering Heine asshole or working for sick murdering Heine asshole. The most practical thing in terms of concrete achievement would probably be to get a gun and make sure I took out some true Heine assholes – a sure improvement to this universe. But that’s not my style. Peacefully floundering is for me. 🙂

  • #5888

    josh

    “…leave the ventana open
    Fredrico Lorca is dead and gone”

    This would have been written around 1978 or so. Would Strummer know some specifics of your story? He was pretty connected, but a targeted outsider by that point. Possible.


    https://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/clash/spanishbombs.html

  • #5891

    josh

    Can u hit me with a search keyword? I want to search for software that does the task like pearltrees/tumbler, etc. of looking at a http URL, and trying to create a little card/image to represent the page with a title in a small box. What noun or verb describes that algorithm? Card? Snapshot?

  • #5894

    josh

    When I focus on a text, I’m getting better at looking for A,B,C, and D keys, all of which are fairly common. When multiple ones are used at once, that’s a good clue of a DC or GHCQ pro.

  • #5902

    josh

    It’s difficult for me to go out even for a fast, unannounced trip now, without picking up some tracer – applied to my car seat while I’m in the store, or sprayed…the water seems to have a chemical in it that makes tracer when heated (shower temperature or coffee)…FBI tries to do what it takes to make life/work useless and difficult everyday…they don’t care about justice, murdering everyone in sight, but they like the idea that I am paying as an ant for standing next to your superstar status while u keep working for them…and it’s hard to argue the reality of that.

  • #5903

    josh

    My guess, thinking back, is that Nancy was replaced between the 2013 (before FBI takeover) and 2014 soccer seasons. The version of her and Elizabeth in 2014 were edited. So the Popcorn was the original.

  • #5904

    josh

    I know u are feeling lonely. I’ll try to make more noise. Tbis week I’m spending most of my time feeling sick and trying to do something about it. The good news is that I am not seeing any new technologies recently…just bigger/strong EMF guns, more locations, more effort to tag me with chem marker, trying to use the drain robot more…basically FBI is just trying really hard with versions of tricks I’ve already seen. It is keeping me busy, but perhaps they will run out of rope at some point.

    My “facade”/config plan in software is working out well.

  • #5905

    josh

    I’m not looking on purpose for FBI/CIA threats, insults, or lies. I look for u, sometimes other friends, and I look for clues about what other people believe, true or false. During the daytime, Twitter is mostly staffed by people who are supposed to stuff my Twitter queue with threats, insults, & lies. So it’s mostly an annoying waste. I don’t take any particular thing seriously.

  • #5906

    josh

    I was remembering yesterday, nostalgically, how my Mom got me rooting for Penn basketball in the 1970s, and at one point, their star player was a guy named “Corkey Calhoun”, which I now realize was kind of a diss the Heine name. Couldn’t have a star player with that name today.

  • #5907

    josh

    Here’s a small problem for u to think about. I don’t need a “solution” – we have big problems – but u get bothered by small things, a lot, so I want to describe it.

    When we first started interacting – Fall 2010 – that came about because I was feeling lonely/down (divorce, etc) and I decided to share links with people who were listening to interesting music. The rest is history, but the point I am making is that social isolation isn’t good, and I was feeling lonely at that point in time. Not as much today, even without family, are a lot more isolation, because I have u and because I have mission that is about surviving, trying to help save humanity from total annihilation, and it takes all my time just to feel okay. But still, there is a situation like this: FBI/Heine prevent people who are not Heine from even hearing me. Most guys heed advice to view me as an enemy. Most women are abused and want to be friendly, but they have been socialized to only do that through flirty LCs. I can’t do much about that situation in the short term.

  • #5908

    josh

    I am up & rested to experience more pain & suffering, do more shielding, and develop more noise against the world destroying Heine. No evidence that people outside of pro Heine criminal see anything I write, but I’ll keep trying.

  • #5909

    josh

    We still talking about the time where u told me we would never speak, I had a new house to set up, & a career to start so I could have a life, still wanting to connect with u online, & then u told me that everything I understood was a lie & walked away. How did that become about me not being into u??

    • #5910

      josh

      It was a sad mistake for both of us that u didn’t tell me u were going to be bitterly disappointed if I moved. I’m sad about that too, but u didn’t tell me and I made a rational decision given what I knew at the time.

      • #5911

        josh

        I don’t think I knew back at that time that Friday was especially important to u. I knew almost no details about u. Much of what I had been led to believe was wrong. I knew that wordfunph was actually a woman and not an old Philippine man.

  • #5912

    josh

    I hoped we were close enough that u would try to tell me about death threats.

  • #5913

    josh

    Big upgrade of the flux gun on the electric utility pole, to the SW, has made today kind of a sickening waste of time, though I did get some IT work done in between massive amounts of plastic bag taping.

  • #5914

    josh

    Best of breed Query Builder interface would have these properties:
    1) Allow regular SQL as an option
    2) Allow short hand based on availability of table structures – e.g. adding the table & different subsets of its columns to select/insert/update without a bunch of string building
    3) Fluid
    4) Make it easy to do the quoting things in non-ugly ways
    5) Allow saving/reuse of chunks of query smaller than the prepared form
    6) Easy options for output of rows/cols/objects
    7) Easy to remember any new/unfamiliar parts

    No existing lib does all of those. I don’t need to either. But I saw room for improvement and had some other issues/incompatibilities with the examples I saw.

  • #5915

    josh

    U tell me what’s best to work on & I’ll work on that. U know that anything I do is going to be blocked from reaching outside people, & if it does reach them then they are quickly murdered. So it’s hard to say what a good strategy looks like.

  • #5916

    josh

    U say Fri night is important to u, so the FBI/CIA make sure they have a crew of toxic smelly assholes working on Fri night, so that looking for u is a process of reading their stupid verbal feces.

  • #5917

    josh

    U say “Right question is: What should I be doing differently to show u that I care?” I dunno. I tell u truthfully that I do, u are the only person I’m able to communicate with these days, even like “this”…and I try to keep some hope alive, for us, together or individually. We are some of the most abused people in the universe, but not as much as all the already murdered people.

  • #5923

    josh

    Hot Rock for Anna

  • #5924

    josh

    I have to find ways to deal with being tortured all the time while trying to stay actively moving to do things about it. When that continues year after year, it takes some kind of adjustment. I can try to relate to u in the same way even when I’m feeling sick, but I can’t do that 100%.

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