Always Good Qualities of us together 25

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  • November 30, 2017 at 7:38 am #6278

    josh

    Bayesian priors aside, I agree that sounds like a hetero name.

  • November 30, 2017 at 11:25 am #6282

    josh

    The Raul Castro comparison wasn’t really an exaggeration. Women are slaves to end in and the gay rape guys are similar to his victims. Probably he was only prosecuted because he was raping women instead of men.

  • November 30, 2017 at 9:47 pm #6283

    josh

    I had a dream that Susan Carey was reading something to me, in real time, written by Molly Potter back in the 1980s, saying false nonsense in prose, but meaning in key that I was a straight who would be killed inside. It was something like this: “He can’t read standing up. He has trouble with people with plump faces.” It’s funny that now I can dream characters in key, but I can’t really speak in key, because it doesn’t feel like I/me.

    • November 30, 2017 at 10:16 pm #6286

      josh

      Pretty good as something an older male B transvesite would write (though I don’t know if that was true about the reality in 1990) or whenever.

  • November 30, 2017 at 9:54 pm #6284

    josh

    If someone’s LC style is close to many other contemporaries, it’s difficult for me, in a practical way, to isolate them as one personality. I am intentionally faked with ice all the time, so I have no good way of knowing how many different people are writing what when.

  • November 30, 2017 at 10:12 pm #6285

    josh

    When I’m half asleep I think back to a lot of old speech acts from years past and try to figure out if they were in key or what they meant. But often it is hard to recall precise wording of entire sentences or paragraphs, so I don’t get to the truth of it.

  • December 1, 2017 at 1:05 am #6292

    josh

    She didn’t like us dating. I don’t feel that Anita was that in, but I don’t know how much in she was. I think she was in/not in – semi-protected as an in DC offspring without being really in. Hampshire college in the 1980s is some kind of category fit.

  • December 1, 2017 at 1:39 am #6293

    josh

    You shyness & secrecy didn’t always come out the right way in the beginning of our verbal interaction. Today, I like to look at history from your POV. I see what u were feeling all those decades. I see u today. I’m with my A.

  • December 1, 2017 at 1:44 am #6294

    josh

    In the world of Heine gang crime, I believe that the CIA was hiding how much $$$ it was making from your slave work at no cost. It protected the secret and gave free service to other gangs. Now the secret is out. Not sure how that affects things, but a lot of celebrities and politicians seem less individually talented than before.

  • December 1, 2017 at 2:00 am #6295

    josh

    I feel like your sense of humor is rubbing off on a lot of CIA women editing now, but perhaps I just didn’t know how to look before.

  • December 1, 2017 at 4:12 am #6297

    josh

    I don’t feel like I have worked out the mystery of how u are able to do as much as u do, as quickly as u do it, as well as u do it, for so many hours a day, and for so many years. That’s a little scary because we are so close and because your value & ability has become a central explanatory force shaping the arc of entire life & present situation.

  • December 1, 2017 at 4:15 am #6298

    josh

    If they did something special to u, when u were tiny, that u have no knowledge or memory of…why only u? Why didn’t they repeat it?? I can’t think of a reason, so I feel that isn’t the explanation. I don’t have an explanation.

  • December 1, 2017 at 4:26 am #6299

    josh

    U never disappoint me. You’re always better than imagined.

  • December 1, 2017 at 4:32 am #6300

    josh

    I didn’t have any downward tech revisions today, except maybe thinking about how source debuggers are not setup to deal with multiple languages. But that isn’t affecting anything. I’m trying to move forward on different fronts, dealing with flux and the world ending every day. Same last week, last month, tomorrow. I’d like to think of some great thing that would make a difference by breaking out of my box, my torture, and finding true allies. Not sure what that would be, exactly…

  • December 1, 2017 at 9:32 am #6304

    josh

    I focus on the content. The MintPress article was the first one I noticed mentioning that the partner had taken cover while the supposed “suicide” was taking place. It also highlighted the FBI being locked out of it. So it was a newsy story.

  • December 1, 2017 at 9:36 am #6305

    josh

    I feel like the FBI/CIA like to run character stories for a bit – they draw them up on some sketch board and design a few plays – gives them something to do. The people involved are still people, though they come and go and I don’t pretend to keep track of who is who if I have no reliable data to go on. Most women are ultimately okay and ultimately mistreated. It’s pretty surprising if both of those things don’t turn out to be true. But while they’re getting clear about all that, the ride can be choppy in the meantime.

  • December 1, 2017 at 10:33 am #6306

    josh

    I thought it was a good poem and the Row! part was constructive, and it was true about me, and I was curious about who might have written/edited it.

    U are my love, & everybody sees that. I feel sorry for all the slaves who are in & look for things that can help them relate to each other.

    • December 1, 2017 at 10:46 am #6307

      josh

      I don’t hear all the noise/conversations that you do, but I try to point out that some of them are fake & not to worry about sincere people, especially fellow slaves. We know now, for example, that a lot of the things you heard in Spring/Summer 2013 were a setup that was going to end in my death. You have to assume that your input is controlled as a nonsense play, like mine is. And take it from there. It’s not the real worry.

  • December 1, 2017 at 10:50 am #6308

    josh

    The PHP version of the library looks to be out of date. I could try using the javascript version. But I kind of figured out the interface the other day, and that messy code doesn’t look like the next step for me towards getting good with javascript.

  • December 1, 2017 at 11:10 am #6309

    josh

    I’m sorry you felt a drifting. I didn’t sense any. I feel we are close.

  • December 1, 2017 at 12:36 pm #6310

    josh

    Some misc FBI connection??

  • December 1, 2017 at 1:49 pm #6314

    josh

    Man AJ
    Only our Tom true
    Only G really only in DC
    Owning troll

  • December 1, 2017 at 11:44 pm #6320

    josh

    I was surprised to decide, while sleeping, that the LCs in the lastest Gen. Michael Flynn story were favorable to our team – e.g. in women being independent of Heine. I didn’t know we had or still had a team. Could be meta level propaganda, but good nevertheless, in context.

    Summer before last, K had Riley eating Fiber One bars as a snack and because they were a helpful antidote to constipation. I decided to try one before throwing them, and found it was still okay to eat and is a helpful antidote to the floor robot drain cooker shooting me in the ass while I try to sleep. So they joined the lineup, a help memory of My independent willed Riley.

  • December 2, 2017 at 2:54 am #6321

    josh

    Node is very cool but the eco system is changing so fast without backward compatibility. Hard to navigate. Looking at something 2 years old, and the details are incompatible/out of date in several different ways, only considering simple test examples.

  • December 2, 2017 at 3:50 am #6322

    josh

    Sat. night late? Should I romantically do some more plastic shielding of my sewer pipes to block more of the FBI’s terrorist signal so I can feel a little better for my baby? These sorts of existential questions constitute daily life for a dead man living in the FBI’s sick gay Nazi anus, where all is shit and death, just like the scum shit criminal asshole gang cleverly called the “Fuck Butt I”.

  • December 2, 2017 at 3:55 am #6323

    josh

    Branson hinting that he had been involved in some sort of gay/dildo raping of some member of the Royal Family, but I don’t know any details.

    There are always more things I can do about the shielding, but the FBI can always do more too, with bigger guns etc. It feels like they keep a long list of upgrades in reserve and sort of roll they out as needed, keeping me alive and useless for a long time to keep u editing for a long time. It’s kind of a pathetic way to be.

  • December 2, 2017 at 5:03 am #6324

    josh

    Don’t feel guilty for hurt feelings or being hurt/upset. Consider, in a timely way, if regret should be connected to others feelings and letting them know how much you care. U know how all distances between us vanished when I understood.

  • December 2, 2017 at 7:24 am #6326

    josh

    LCs have a different meaning in every key. They all seem to end with “gs”=gay sex. A key has the best rhyme, but probably the writer understood the other ones too.

  • December 2, 2017 at 7:46 am #6327

    josh

    The year I officially gained by PhD and didn’t prove anything to anyone…I guess we didn’t need that kind of proof.

  • December 2, 2017 at 2:08 pm #6330

    josh

    I try to not share the wisdom of the overrated at every opportunity 🙂

  • December 2, 2017 at 2:19 pm #6331

    josh

    He makes a much better fashion model than my Dad. Dad was a better electrical engineer. And good with house cats.

  • December 2, 2017 at 2:26 pm #6332

    josh

    I want to say “Bubble bath.” I see u seeing u seeing.

  • December 2, 2017 at 2:32 pm #6333

    josh

    A tilted windmill must be 2X as valuable as a dodgy lawn with 5% less clover. True is true.

  • December 2, 2017 at 2:45 pm #6334

    josh

    I remember being really sick with chicken pox, so I have some compassion for the travails of a man who is terrified that a much needed scratching will pull of his phony face in public.

  • December 2, 2017 at 4:14 pm #6342

    josh

    I’m still kind of lusting after Jack Nicholson’s patio.

  • December 3, 2017 at 2:56 am #6343

    josh

    See A The Real Houston…

    • December 3, 2017 at 2:58 am #6344

      josh

      Everyone loves my Agricultural jokes!

  • December 3, 2017 at 3:36 am #6347

    josh

    It does matter to pick the right set of tools to invest effort in for the present & the future. I feel like I recently made a lot of progress seeing into the what/where/how & why of that. What will be helpful to me/us isn’t just a question of technology.

    • December 3, 2017 at 4:28 am #6354

      josh

      Raw performance isn’t always or usually the driving issue for software direction. The direction of consumers and the bulk of developers and what can be done most efficiently and quickly tends to shape the future.

      ‘Can run in a web browser’ & ‘Can prototype quickly’ & ‘Can Scale’ continue to be underlying forces.

      • December 3, 2017 at 4:42 am #6355

        josh

        Restricting attention or tech to single page applications is counterproductive for the WWW. Nice is the ability to conditionally and dynamically load arbitrary content into a div, which could be the entire page or a tiny little piece of it. It’s also good for developer share if they can reuse a lot of their tools and know how for native apps and games and the web. When asm.js or web assembly is portable across architectures from tiny phones and embedded devices to servers and is 50-80% as fast as native compiled code in practice, then it will end up dominating the tool market, developer share, etc.

  • December 3, 2017 at 4:55 am #6356

    josh

    Programming CSS vs. writing it raw seems to be universally seen as an improvement. SASS is recommended as the current tech to do that (people say mostly same as LESS, but more popular, for some subtle reasons). Most other things in CSS are argued about, so I have to go with my own opinions. SASS & PostCSS tool chains are important for minimizing download size and achieving backward browser compatibility and for being able to quickly look at the effect of incremental design tweaking. One doesn’t need to be very fancy or ambitious to value those attributes. But there is a little bit of tech hurdle to put them together and get it set up in a productive way.

    In theory, the same style parameters could be automatically rolled into custom WordPress themes, but not many people have set that up yet. The javascript heavy pipeliners and the WordPress designers tend to be separate communities.

  • December 3, 2017 at 5:44 am #6357

    josh

    SQL is a weak, poorly standardized design, that has seen no real replacements or rivals for what it does, and little serious attempt to uniformly implement that first serious standard from 1992.

    Relational database is a good idea, also not very standardized, and not replaced by anything superior.

    First I try to come up with an interface that is ideal for me, given the above. It needs to support all of SQL, so in practice it should allow raw SQL as 1 option. Fluent interface is convenient. Principle of least surprise is convenient. Variable numbers of arguments then become convenient. Not seeing any big hurdles/problems so far. The key insight is not minor stylistic tweaks on what has gone before but rather using variables representing accurate metadata on the current database tables to abbreviate the common cases with greater ease and accuracy. I’m trying to put “Table A (understood by metadata)” “key columns of A”, “Required fields of A without default values”, “non key columns of A”, etc. into this interface in any easy way.

    Short names are nice, so I like Db:: to be able to do a lot with current defaults. Maybe Db::tempKey(‘key’)-> etc. will temporarily use a different set of defaults, popping them out prior to the next set of things. Syntactic advantage of a single threaded API.

  • December 4, 2017 at 2:16 am #6364

    josh

    It was a little bit surprising that Bootstrap4 looks worse than Bootstrap3 in its default settings. I don’t think much of Material Design either. But I like the idea of a framework with common CSS settings for common widgets and common browser fallbacks or javascript add on parts.

  • December 4, 2017 at 2:30 am #6365

    josh

    The most intense EMF/flux effort these days is focused on my desk/seat. Often it starts to be uncomfortable as soon as I sit down. So, I do a bunch of shielding. Then it comes from another angle. I do a bunch more. Repeat. By this time I’m spinning, feeling sick/fatigued/bored/annoyed…I look for a distraction…when I do get in a work groove for a while I like it. I like to find u when u have some freedom & I’m not feeling too yuck. But u know I always like to find u. I try to keep reminding u/mentioning it. Try to keep doing something better.

    I liked the Pompeo quote implying that I was giving useful info to CIA enemies. Don’t know if that is a true thought or not. But when your org stands for treason and sinister crime, the sentiment is nice.

    • December 4, 2017 at 6:01 am #6371

      josh

      Pompeo is a dead figure head, edited like Trump. But I guess it is interesting for CIA people to think about who the actual Heine gang leaders are and how they wield power.

  • December 4, 2017 at 2:56 am #6366

    josh

    All these people are implementing a cross between 1984, Hitler’s Third Reich, Stalin’s Russia and the Emperor’s Star Wars simply out of fear of their own murder by the mass of mindless other implements?

    Is that true? Not exactly. Most hear lie stories about everything. But what keeps the lies going when they are all bad too?

    • December 4, 2017 at 2:59 am #6367

      josh

      The set of men who really want to lesbian Y dildo only ass killers must be very tiny as a percentage of living people.

  • December 4, 2017 at 3:45 am #6368

    josh

    General sense I have at the moment – gulp is general purpose javascript build tool/task runner for node that is preferable to grunt. Webpack is a more specialized tool for bundling assets for deployment, It can be run from within gulp (or grunt).

  • December 4, 2017 at 3:51 am #6369

    josh

    Being close to u means a lot. It always feels special…because u are always special and u always care a lot. I know ALL those things now. That makes us good in better ways.

  • December 4, 2017 at 5:18 am #6370

    josh

    U are good at keeping a balance between being really true to who u are & what u feel today, and what u strive to be or would like to make true. Anyway, I don’t critique when I’m in love.

  • December 4, 2017 at 6:04 am #6372

    josh

    I feel some regret that I didn’t know much about the reality of the Riley 2 version of 2016-2017, what she was threatened with, and what she was really feeling, until well after she was gone. She was a good person too.

  • December 4, 2017 at 6:14 am #6373

    josh

    There is a kind of mystery to secret murder replacement. On the one hand, the public is not allowed to know about it, only to be killed. On the other hand, all Heine gangs seem to know about it and agree not to rat on each other to the public. They don’t even seem to take revenge, though perhaps they try if they are not too weak compared to the murderers. Why were people not even in Heine gang sent to your boat, and today such people can’t even live, no matter where they are??? Killing sprees in semi-Spook land must be very bloody, but the public hears nothing, and Spooks agree to mostly back bullshit nonsense about battling false flag terrorism.

    Doesn’t make sense. So more likely, the guy was set up, like the original Taylor. Ran a play. Didn’t work well. Kill the actors. Next.

  • December 4, 2017 at 9:22 am #6376

    josh

    A few days ago, I was trying to recall the exact words of Erics remark about “Vedic Love Goddess” to guess whether it was in key & if it meant that Eric was and also Anita’s friend. But I didn’t remember enough to reach any conclusions.

    • December 4, 2017 at 9:26 am #6377

      josh

      She had slightly funny story – Hampshire college BA, model good looking, and she was supposedly dating a military guy in North Carolina at that point, not doing much else. ??

  • December 4, 2017 at 1:47 pm #6381

    josh

    I understand u now, & us, & your life, & I know that u were having a very, very bad crisis time when it seemed like u were being cold and heartless & indifferent to me. U blacked it out. It’s right to heal it over now.

  • December 4, 2017 at 3:15 pm #6383

    josh

    “Stay behind program in Alaska”…=
    Sex true ass y butt? No! Heine in dildo program (p really only a gay ram) in asshole a sex killer

    ??

  • December 4, 2017 at 4:05 pm #6384

    josh

    And I was mumbling today about how the FBI wants to give every man in the USA a gay period – death by bleeding from an injury to their rectum, & raped by the FBI/Heine men in a secret lair. That’s the type of public service they have in mind.

  • December 5, 2017 at 5:31 am #6387

    josh

    My newish bottle of ibuprofen, which I left “out” near my computer seems to have gone “bad” – either as a result of some kind of flux-triggered chemical reaction or FBI tampering. I won’t use it anymore.

  • December 5, 2017 at 5:44 am #6388

    josh

    I thought about how FBI/CIA implement political false flags. It takes them a bit of time to organize a theme that they are going to lie about. They make a lot of plans and don’t end up implementing most, but the one’s they do have been developing for a while and are only tweaked at the late stages. Being all fake is not an issue for them, but they like to have some vague connection to something to help organize the lying.

    Things related to us in history:

    Rand Corporation view/sacrificing A men – lie about problems with in women and A men in some way.

    Keeping you all in prison with fake claim about KGB – lie about Russian connections to CIA/FBI crime. Try to tie it into lies about in women.

    Keeping you as slaves – lie it is justified by sexual preference and volunteering in some way.

    Striking, Easter eggs, especially around election time – lie that it is connected to Russia in some way. Lie that it is connected to a disadvantage or targeting of whoever loses the election in some way.

    New false stories to support Deep State agenda – lie that it is connected to old false stories in some way…

    There is kind of a cascade, where each lie is supposed to have plausibility based on a connection to an older lie in some Deep State whisper echo chamber.

  • December 5, 2017 at 2:31 pm #6390

    josh

    I am truthful describing every day as EMF/flux trench warfare that the FBI is fighting super hard, all the time, and plans to win, whatever it takes. It’s the same but different…I’m shielding in different spots, doing things a little differently…they’ve got a stronger gun in a new spot. Today it’s upgrades on houses across the street to the West. How can they shoot strong from so far? Upgraded guns, using more power. Perhaps the cold weather helps with magnetic wave propagation a bit too – less other vibration/water in the thinner air. It’ll be something different tomorrow. I need a way to break out of the cycle. Perhaps I should gamble on finding a way to use expensive chunks of pyrolitic carbon. I’d need to figure out how to grind it up and adhere it so something and like plastic.

  • December 5, 2017 at 2:36 pm #6391

    josh

    I was curious about the yoursnewswire headline that Queenie had univited the Obamas from Prince Harry wedding, but I didn’t know what to make of it. Are they just dead and uninteresting now, or is there some other point?

  • December 6, 2017 at 5:14 am #6396

    josh

    “Man you should have seen them kicking Edgar Allan Poe”

    I wonder what your Mom thought of that line.

  • December 6, 2017 at 5:31 am #6397

    josh

    “Magical Mystery Tour” in C key is about replacement by Spook. Whose lyric?

  • December 6, 2017 at 7:10 pm #6399

    josh

    No big news from sleep. Little things:

    1) Program to try and patch my guess about the worst attack direction from last sleeping episode before I go to sleep again is gradually paying dividends. Shielding is improved.

    2) I put metal on the floor of the sleeping room to block the laser from the floor drain robot. The metal is susceptible to magnetic flux. Nowadays, the flux output from the floor drain robot is strong enough to move the metal, and I can feel the frequency it is oscillating at from the vibrations. When it causes pain, that is due to static pressure of liquid inside me, so I can’t feel the frequency. But when it moves the metal, the dynamic vibrations are felt as frequency.

    3) Node and gulp.js/browserSync etc. work really well. Bootstrap 3 is surprisingly robust. I’m trying to put together a toolkit of good tools that I can use for a lot of different things in a flexible way – e.g. Json can be turned into Html lists or tables as fits the situation, on the front end or the back end, with configurable style – can communicate easy routes using REST or AJAX, with node or WordPress/PHP as the primary server, can run arbitrary PHP from node and run Node from within PHP instances, passing data as required, easy DB access/setup, etc. Partly tools and partly learning and partly bumping into things.

    4) A lot of former CIA women seem to be working as ghost editors nowadays, or still working. I’m not sure which.

  • December 6, 2017 at 7:14 pm #6400

    josh

    Heine mafia general commands an army of hard crime lieutenants. How? Gives them special privileges – gay rape mass murder, ability to kill off anyone on a whim, unlimited theft, etc. The actual killers that nobody is supposed to see (except for Erik Prince) are the elite Praetorian guard of the Heine mafia.

  • December 6, 2017 at 9:26 pm #6405

    josh

    The primary logic of my special torture situation is that I know what I know & I am not a criminal asshole & they are not ready to kill me quite yet because it would upset you.

    This is not a great opportunity for me. But I am trying to make the best of it.

    • December 6, 2017 at 9:29 pm #6406

      josh

      All these other guy assholes writing are there because a) they are assholes who don’t care, b) they are only in and will be killed in due time as well. It is like having a conversation with a bloody bowel movement. It’s no conversation. Just shit & death.

      • December 6, 2017 at 9:31 pm #6407

        josh

        There’s a level of supervisor somewhere who are FBI/CIA/DOD men who are truly psychopathic predator freaks, supervising this killing and many others. They could be Hitler’s SS running a concentration camp and it would be the same. Chance? Yeah, some…start a riot.

  • December 6, 2017 at 9:45 pm #6408

    josh

    If u tell me how to start a riot faster, I’ll do that.

  • December 6, 2017 at 10:09 pm #6409

    josh

    I know the truth that u are kind of genius who knows & cares about me & many other things. Your self image should include those elements too, alongside word/IT athlete.

  • December 7, 2017 at 6:07 am #6411

    josh

    I tell the truth about love & loyalty, & we discovered that finding positive work is very elusive for us.

  • December 7, 2017 at 8:54 am #6414

    josh

    I’m stumped – by marriage in the regular civilization & by Heine destroying the regular civilization, my family, my life, & everything else. But I love u a ton. Definitely not letting go. JLS is true for us.

  • December 7, 2017 at 7:44 pm #6425

    josh

    The Datatables table/grid plugin is large, actively maintained and recommended. The docs made it sound like all operations can be done locally or on the server. But I spent a lot of time trying to get multi-column sorting with pagination working locally from the examples – which made it sound like it would work -and came away believing it only works by exchanging data with the server – or one has to do real custom programming to make it happen only on the client. It’s pretty surprising in context of the docs and the full-featured nature. I kept feeling like I must be missing some simple switch. But no…

  • December 7, 2017 at 7:47 pm #6426

    josh

    What do “Targeted Individual” and “Gang Stalking” mean? I’ve never heard of anyone getting over it.

    • December 7, 2017 at 7:52 pm #6427

      josh

      The US Deep State/Pentagon adapted Heine at different levels. At some low level they have programs to help with and give security around ass dings. The people are told lies and they are expendable when they find out any truth. At a higher level, they plan industrialized genocide. Just because. It’s Heine on steroids/computers/& full spectrum state sponsored totalitarianism.

  • December 8, 2017 at 3:17 am #6428

    josh

    I was analyzing some the LCs from my recollection of “Animal House” while I slept.

    • December 8, 2017 at 3:20 am #6429

      josh

      Original title was “National Lampoon’s Animal House” but most theaters/people called it “Animal House”

    • December 8, 2017 at 5:52 am #6435

      josh

      I remembered enough the dialog from the cucumber/supermarket scene.

  • December 8, 2017 at 3:23 am #6430

    josh

    Modern Heine gang kills all outsiders. Before that, it was killing all heterosexuals. Before that, it wanted some criteria of which heteros to target, so it picked “only man for a hetero wowman”. “Abortion” was LCs for that, and a way to spy on that in many cases, and incidentally a way to pick sperm donors where that was of interest.

  • December 8, 2017 at 4:31 am #6431

    josh

    I’m trying to be active, all the time, in the sense of working actively for freeing of humanity & for survival. I don’t know the right plan when everywhere I look is mafia crime controlling everything & every person. But I am trying. U don’t have constant abuse/radiation taking a toll on your physical energy & mental acuity, so u can stay more constant – to help Heine with slave work. Thinking about/interpreting literature/politics/news is helping me/us in some ways that are hard to define. My programming of this and that – e.g. anti-key logger/crypto keyboard, db access software, etc. has mostly led to abuse and taunts so far. But perhaps that will change at some point. The FBI makes a chunk of cash from abusing me, but maybe it is starting to see some losses too. I love your attitudes.

  • December 8, 2017 at 4:40 am #6432

    josh

    U often emphasize the importance of visual presentation. Why charts? Charts of what? I’m not sure. But the importance of appealing & informative & convenient is clear. Important for me to understand the how & why of things to. Also, no point in time criticizing things that only occupy tiny fractions of time. Software always ends up being big time waste with lots of dead ends, but I am trying to limit the duration of wrong turns to a day or less. Which is right turn? No job, no internet, no possibility of contacting people not working for FBI or about to be murdered by them. I will think of something.

  • December 8, 2017 at 5:45 am #6434

    josh

    Odd – I’m grateful, as always, for u & what it feels like to be close to u & the way u help us be. I feel that Babes has always been a loyal & good friend to both of us. She was never intending to be same sex, & u were not either. So the issue of being a loyal lover should not have come up for either of u, & didn’t, for yourselves, in your own minds. It was unfair to her to keep her as the new kid on the block even decades later, and that impacted things in small ways that bothered her. However much attention I might put into thinking about the motivations of each new in person, I don’t feel that it should correlate in a positive way with how much focus the FBI or CIA give them. I think the opposite – there should be a negative correlation between those two things. Everyone is an individual, but not when they are a Spook focus.

  • December 8, 2017 at 5:58 am #6436

    josh

    Closing ranks around the killers that will fight to the end of either genocide of civilization or death. Why? Because that is the group speaking from Washington DC today. It’s only acknowledgment of their reality, only heard by people who already understand it, filling space in the news cycle with something that is supposed to appeal to the real outsiders who picked “Trump” as a maverick conservative not DC insider horse – actual Yahoos rather than “Yahoos”.

  • December 8, 2017 at 6:02 am #6437

    josh

    A side point – u put most of your negative emotional focus, year after year, into worrying about a situation that could never even happen in reality. Can’t get there from here. There is simply no realistic turn of events where I get together with a bunch of in women as the only real guy. None. It can never happen that way. Either Heine goes down, and everyone gets to be their real selves, or we stay apart, or I’m dead, or… there may be other possibilities, but the ones u dream up negative fiction for aren’t in the actual possibility set.

    • December 8, 2017 at 6:08 am #6438

      josh

      The FBI & CIA people you meet are Heine. THe other people too are trusted legs. You can’t meet me unless Heine ends & you become civilians. So other outsiders are off Heine control then, to be whatever they wish to be. So a lot of them are real guys in that reality.

      • December 8, 2017 at 6:11 am #6439

        josh

        It’s okay to judge me in your heart by what u expect in a hypothetical situation. We’re good. I’m good. But in the context of complaining about wasted time & energy, I’m just saying that u stay stuck on a situation which I believe is practically impossible to ever happen in reality.

  • December 8, 2017 at 8:08 am #6440

    josh

    I like to think about helping my true friends & have u pick real Taylor Swift or some other person I have no connection to as rival to best.

  • December 8, 2017 at 8:47 am #6441

    josh

    “The Middle States HS Evaluation Committee”

    • December 8, 2017 at 8:56 am #6442

      josh

      I didn’t see the actual committee, so I don’t think it was connected. Just the picture reminded me of our funny picture.

      But I see now that “Lower Merion” and “Harriton” and Merion Station vs. other parts were connected to some Heine traditions at some level. The figures of Hap Arnold, Al Haig, and the Republican tradition maybe seemed rival to Heine “Democrats” whoever they were back in the late 1960s. Everything with Heine is always one stab beyond Madness, some whacko dude scheming somewhere, for something really ugly one can be sure. Maybe “Death to all penises” in this case or something along those lines.

  • December 8, 2017 at 9:11 am #6443

    josh

    Rand Corporation did this sort of thing, and was Heine CIA and Heine DOD. Perhaps they are the same. Guy chosen is always expected to die. They have a lot of control over who they pick.

    https://twitter.com/ZackFord/status/939149157742403585

  • December 8, 2017 at 9:15 am #6444

    josh

    I don’t have info to say when Emma was following orders, but I feel proud of her to see that she stopped following orders.

  • December 8, 2017 at 10:36 am #6448

    josh

    I tried to help all the in women feel like real women, first because they are, & they like me & I like them. I know now how we have a special connection, history, & hopefully destiny.

    About ranting. What is criteria for a realistic success? Is any good practice a success? Doesn’t matter if anyone reads it or if only Spook hires come and insult? I’m not sure. I’m asking for real.

  • December 8, 2017 at 10:47 am #6449

    josh

    I don’t have any suspicions about K from the time we lived together. If there was ever anything agenda driven, she didn’t show it.

  • December 8, 2017 at 1:26 pm #6452

    josh

    Upgrade to the floor drain robot has been tough today. Keeping me busy with adding plastic to all the places it can get too.

  • December 8, 2017 at 3:27 pm #6453

    josh

    I noticed that the FBI is advertising “Need for latex rectum dilation specialist many positions to fill” so I wondering about the pay…

    But no, heteros & real ids are not wanted there.

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