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  • #1774

    Josh

    The National Democrats are taking marching orders and following a playbook. The individuals following orders are mostly focused on trying to survive and turn things around politically. They are excited about having the CIA and FBI as their allies. They don’t have any underlying truth or care much about it. They are politicians and used to the lie of the day, whatever it is.

  • #1775

    Josh

    If u want to search tea leaves for clues, it’s best to group the tea leaves into different piles depending on whether they come from enemies, neutrals or friends. I emphasize again that all the tea leaves close to u come from enemies that are usually working at some deception unless they are distracted by something else. For whatever reason, u have a weakness about remembering that. So try to make a mental note about it.

  • #1776

    Josh

    The FBI is always about politics. Politics and committing crime. The low-level people in the criminal division are sincere, but the FBI, as an org, uses the criminal division for PR/marketing and is really about politics, power, and their own special interests. They are always focused on destroying all political opponents, with as much force and ruthlessness as they can muster. People who don’t expect super hard ball from the FBI are simply naive – as most people are; as I was.

  • #1781

    Josh

    U sound so sweet. Wish so much I was with u.

    Working on digging out one of the guns. They had moved it away from the kitchen, so I had to search for the spot. I’ve taken off the vented soffit in a few locations and I see it’s a complex installation that they’ve built into the wall. I was thinking it might be something like a loose cell phone…no such like. Not sure whether to try and rip it out and make a mess or cover it with plastic. Maybe decide tomorrow. Loose plastic is helping for the moment.

  • #1795

    Josh

    U were worried, for reasons, about getting me killed. But on the other front, if u could go back in time, I think that correct plan for u was to talk to me a lot and get comfortable that u could trust me – not let fear play a big unconscious role. I’m happy we got through anyway.

  • #1796

    Josh

    Going back to the topic of keeping u updated in 2012…u were spying enough to know that this was the peak of K being upset angry and us not getting along at all. It was difficult & distracting. The idea of not going through with divorce wasn’t even on anyone’s radar.

    • #1797

      Josh

      There was no phases. It was only a negotiation/struggle to reach financial agreement. The MN divorce law said that I would get a better than even split because she was marking big money and I was making nothing. So it was only a question of the details. I had a housing issue because nobody in our community rents and I couldn’t get a mortgage without a job, and I couldn’t leave without Riley. So we were hammering out those details.

  • #1800

    Josh

    I feel that u got tired/down here – of course I understand – but I want to say there is a kind of contradiction. The way I see things:
    1) I can’t win any freedom for u without a huge win over CIA/FBI.
    2) I can’t win any health for myself with a huge confrontational struggle where I make my opposition very plain & public.
    3) Opposition can do some good for the world with or without a huge win
    4) I don’t have any strategy for winning that doesn’t involve opposition in public.

    Given all of the above, there are no conflicts of interest in choosing strategy.

  • #1801

    Josh

    Every day I think a lot about thinks I want to change and what needs to happen to get there. That’s pretty normal. Being a 24/day slave is unusual. The lack of opportunity to make changes in your environment means u also don’t have a practice of occupying your thoughts with that sort of thing. We can talk & u can think about what I try to do, even if it feels slow, and maybe u can appreciate things u can do at that slow speed too. I love your intensity. I know u will never lose it. And u don’t lose me when I’m thinking about something like that.

  • #1802

    Josh

    It takes a nation of Mom’s…but I’m the bestest!

  • #1804

    Josh

    What do u suggest that I should be spending more money on?

    • #1805

      Josh

      Things that will keep me healthy or make me healthier? I agree those are good priorities, but I don’t have anything specific I am holding back on.

  • #1806

    Josh

    The FBI is trying to do things all the time. Since Dec. they installed 7 different guns on the exterior of my house. Now that the weather has warmed up, if I can take those out, it will help a lot. But they keep doing other things too. They put other guns inside the house before that I was able to cover with plastic. They started using a new algorithm the other day where the steady pole of the magnet flux is aimed at me and a low-frequency wave is pushed through any hole or set of holes to find its way to the aim spot. That’s a good trick because the plastic doesn’t do much against the steady state aim and the wave is much harder to find and block – it seaps. Those are just examples. The point is that they have a big team and no matter what I do, they will keep trying to attack in new ways. So it is sort of endless and there is no magic bullet to escape. Making myself less essential to the story cuts down on their incentive/priority to get me. Helping the public to see their crimes gives them more fires to worry about.

  • #1807

    Josh

    Kinzer retweeted something by Cole and I had seen some other relevant articles recently, so I checked him out. He fit pretty well.

    • #1808

      Josh

      It doesn’t cost money, just a little time to put someone on the list. So I think it’s a good time optimization to kind of check them out a bit if I don’t know their work too well and then use Feedly as a trial run. Sort of like a coach putting a player in to see how they do. The ones I’m not reading I then remove over time from the blog list. Twitter has a community function. I’m not sure which reach people.

  • #1809

    Josh

    I wish the conservatives would get off the “Podesta is the pedophile” kick and focus on more solid leads. There is no good lead with Podesta/pedophilia. He is more likely to be corrupt in other ways and may have been helping FBI or CIA spy/blackmail pedophiles, in which case they will find nothing on him. It’s a big waste of effort that could be spent somewhere more productive.

  • #1810

    Josh

    The CIA has me on a schedule where my account loses followers at a set rate. It is a hard cap on the number of followers, set in software, that moves down at a rate of 8 or 10 per week no matter what. Following back the more attractive ones is more annoying to them though because they blow away more work when they zero those out from 200K following to 10 or 0 or whatever. In some sense they invested money in that scam and it costs more to expunge those bigger accounts, in some abstract way.

  • #1811

    Josh
    • #1812

      Josh

      It’s hard to be sure how in intentional it is, but there are funny subtexts:

      1) Chomsky didn’t pay that much attention to 9/11, so he isn’t paying that much attention to Chomsky’s recent interview

      2) Leftist magazines or the NYT often are, in their way, saying knowledge of how to be on the politically correct side of things, in case the audience needs that…and he’s selling knowledge of where to stash savings in case of some sort of looming financial collapse and dollar devaluation, while he talks about politics and current events.

      3) Chomsky isn’t going to read his blog, so he isn’t going to read Chomsky’s.

  • #1813

    Josh

    There’s a sweet tactile sensation when a pitched ball is hit off the “sweet spot” of the bat. It’s hard to describe, but memorable. The memory of combining the sensation and a success or victory event of some kind motivates people to try and repeat or gain more.

  • #1814

    Josh

    U didn’t explain to me the main reasons why u need to read other editors final edits.

    • #1815

      Josh

      It’s true that u quote/RT/refer etc. Flor uses mostly the channel u don’t automatically read and Babes tends to be pretty subtle. EV pops up in contract spots rather than in the things u would normally use.

  • #1816

    Josh

    My desire to be with u and be in a love affair hasn’t flagged. The only things that affected it negatively in the past were the times we where we didn’t feel like we were on the same team. I like how u are and I’m glad that u obsess about us in the way that it’s part of u, so I love that too. But I wish it didn’t pull u mood down while life is hard to other reasons. The fluctuations are not because of my heart.

  • #1817

    Josh

    It’s impossible for me to keep the FBI from getting the keys to a VPN I am using, so they can just virtualize it and do whatever they are doing anyway. There are some network things I can program, but that a) takes time and b) in our dumbed down bullshit world it gives them some pretext to attack and claim suspicion of malicious hacking – not a charge to stick, but one to harass with.

  • #1818

    Josh

    Not carrying a phone around reduces my chance of being in a serious FBI staged accident. So I think it is smart to keep that habit.

  • #1821

    Josh

    The relevant thing is that we are in a relationship that we like a lot and want to pursue. Doesn’t have to be that way. That’s just the way it is. No friend is shut out. It’s just that we have a mutual desire and plan to focus on us.

  • #1822

    Josh

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  • #1832

    Josh

    There’s always a competition for time & attention between different possibilities. I don’t like u to feel like u have to compete. Everything is more difficult when one is being targeted for destruction by Spook. The commentary practice I’ve been doing lately has some helpful attributes: a) I get feedback on how the politics is going, b) I can influence some other people, directly or indirectly, c) I get feedback on who is helpful and how they are helpful as sources of evidence, influencers, etc. (e.g. Lee Camp and Kurt Nimmo are both helpful, but not in the same ways), d) I can do it in little chunks even while being radiated, e) I find new items for my research collection, f) I document that I’m not crazy in various puddles on the web, g) I leak pieces of the story about Spook.

    It’s a distraction from programming, focused research, focused writing, web making and other tasks I need to do. Of course I need to find balance.

    When you all get along, it helps me in various ways – less negative feeling, less distraction/guilt, more help for us gets done. Shyness is a property of Flor that she is working on updating towards being in a different place.

  • #1834

    Josh

    August 2013 set in motion the conditions for us, u and me, to have a reset. That was something we both wanted. It felt like we came together without needing to explain the desire per se. We explained the other things that had been in the way, and got rid of those.

    ?

  • #1835

    Josh

    It’s easy for me to listen to a Podcast in the background when I am doing chores, but I can’t do it when I’m reading other things or writing. I’m not parallel like that.

  • #1836

    Josh

    I didn’t do any shielding in the night because I want to see what happens when I get all the sources attached to my house knocked out.

  • #1837

    Josh

    I didn’t do any shielding in the night because I want to see what happens when I get all the sources attached to my house knocked out.

    Given the things we know today, it is certainly possible that your father had a fake cover name based on Miguel Najdorf.

    • #1838

      Josh

      Mig could refer to a Russia or British MI guy.

      • #1839

        Josh

        orf = only real female?

        • #1840

          Josh

          I feel it’s pretty sure thing that Bent Larsen was some type of spy asset and that he didn’t fully confide in your Mom. At some point, there was a plan to take her away without explaining the reality of the situation.

  • #1841

    Josh

    I have to be able to accurately sense the spot to drill in. Also, the holes are not 100% free in the sense that it is something that ultimately needs to be patched/replaced. So I want to be relatively accurate.

  • #1845

    Josh

    You make me feel like Yoyo Ma Wasabi.

  • #1846

    Josh

    Was that tree story true?

    • #1847

      Josh

      It sounded too much like a variation on Animal House.

  • #1876

    Josh

    Do u feel like I am unfair about anything?

    • #1877

      Josh

      I didn’t mean that with reference to Flor. I meant with reference to noticing me talking harshly. Not about the anger of being tortured murdered, but about things that I actually think.

      • #1878

        Josh

        The tradition of the ghost editors is not to allow any hetero sex or relationships or family life because they feel they get more work done with less security risk. What motivation would they have to change beyond basic human decency, of which Spook possesses not even the tiniest fraction.

  • #1886

    Josh

    FBI found some relatively clean stretches of drip edge to use, possibly inspired by my earlier comment. So I’m waiting for good daylight to finish those off, inspired by that and my improved analysis/plan. For that combination of reasons, I’ll probably go for a sleep shift sometime soon.

    Incremental progress on the media front looks good.

  • #1896

    Josh

    What are u upset about?

    • #1897

      Josh

      CIA is having a go at editing without u? Maybe u can catch up on reading and let them work?

  • #1899

    Josh

    Having an issue in the front that the plants are in the way of where the ladder needs to go. FBI had some trouble with the installation as well. So I need a workaround. It’s also possible that there is a flux strip in one of Riley’s windows, in which case I need to be careful with any surgery.

  • #1904

    Josh

    My mom says I’m very bright and look handsome in Riley’s shirt.

  • #1905

    Josh

    U don’t want me to keep repeating my analysis of what the CIA plans for its in people. We need to focus on escape, understand that is the only real plan, and not get ourselves feeling bad about the alternatives.

  • #1906

    Josh

    The FBI spends a lot of effort on taunting, and I’ve been doing a good job of not wasting time being distracted.

  • #1907

    Josh

    WeAreChange Luke said he was going to be traveling to Asia. He didn’t say why or how long he was going for. ??

  • #1908

    Josh

    I don’t understand what snake is. A series of edits to a page? Why is it not just one altered page per link per person (me)?

  • #1909

    Josh

    This was the alternative ending where I mastered Satan and moved to a farm in Norwalk Connecticut?

  • #1910

    Josh

    Everyone in in the FBI needs to read the Sword of Shannara just for the ending.

  • #1911

    Josh

    Is there any place on Twitter that keeps track of number of Retweets? If I write something new, then I see some very old tweet get retweeted by a bot in my closet version of Twitter. Is there some logic to that that keeps a count of RTs up to date? If so, where can I see that count?

  • #1912

    Josh

    Karate mom wanted the best for her kid?

  • #1913

    Josh

    Greta Gulch driving?

  • #1914

    Josh

    I didn’t conquer the big bush today, but I did drill out most of the front. Still making progress.

  • #1915

    Josh

    First time I noticed my alma mater in a text. I’ll keep a better eye out for it going forward.

  • #1916

    Josh

    How to balance the optimal amount of “balance” in advocacy, politics, movement formation, or a media avocation? It’s a complicated, context dependent, subjective judgment, not a rule. Including balance gives – a) more opportunities, b) more credibility, c) a check on oneself, d) variety.

  • #1917

    Josh

    Different question? Point: Isn’t it true that the FBI & CIA effectively stop most reporters, advocates, etc. without needing to do anything very explicit or custom for their case? The general system is set up to stop them. Witnesses and whistleblowers they attack. Attacking someone and not finishing the job is something both the FBI and mafia agree is bad business practice. So it fits withing their general way of doing things to attack me and try to finish me as even a crappy witness, while not worrying about me as an advocate or reporter. If I somehow manage to beat the odds on both then I get a little credit. We’ll see.

    • #1918

      Josh

      Perhaps starting with an only moderately lethal attack against a crappy witness while leaving him with no life path left except to become and advocate and hopefully a journalist wasn’t a perfect strategy. But that’s a low probability case. They figure they will get it together at some point with a blind turn, a defective stair tread, cancer, a smart drug, or some other devious toy. In the meantime they are having a big non-consensual human subject torture research opportunity in a “live” setting.

  • #1928

    Josh

    I’m making progress, dealing with one, or a few things at a time…We are making progress…The Greeks made progress…Newton made progress…

    Nobody in the history of the planet before (or likely ever after) has been able to do what u do.

    U don’t need to be afraid of your own emotions, positive or negative.

  • #1929

    Josh

    Now you are bringing my 7th grade math teacher into it.

  • #1930

    Josh

    Looking at the attack Syria chatter today, I see a lot of politicians and media people talking in ways that don’t optimize their own self-interest. They are clearly doing it as Deep State allies. But on a normal day, they shade things more to their own self-interest. So it seems that Deep State is whipping them into a kind of panic to keep control. I don’t know whether Deep State feels any anxiety or basically just feels cocky by looking at how complete their recent level of control has been, with both Dems and Republicans and media all backing them. Since we take a longer view, we can recognize that enemies doing dumb shit is ultimately a kind of opportunity.

  • #1932

    Josh

    I never say anything harsh to u. Regarding the CIA and FBI…I honestly feel they have less morals and integrity than most any mafia/organized crime and we would be in a better situation if we were dealing with organized crime. They wouldn’t base their entire business on a few slaves, and they don’t base their business around conning the entire world to think they are legit in any way.

  • #1937

    Josh

    I wanna keep u, next to me & beautiful.

  • #1938

    Josh

    This looks like a Richard Simmons imitator.

  • #1939

    Josh

    Dis hu I is having always luft off fun with ja.

  • #1940

    Josh

    Remember how we’re not allowed to talk about the plots to murder any famous people, or obscure witnesses, or the evidence, or the King civil trial, etc. etc. All not classified, not secret, not unknown.

  • #1941

    Josh

    Isn’t the roughly up-to-half-an-hour publishing interval something some people would know about and have a (probably false) but hidden story about?

  • #1942

    Josh

    I am writing a little bit faster with fewer mistakes. Not sure how much of that is due to repeating myself…But at least there is no sign of cognitive loss.

  • #1947

    Josh

    I think & feel about u: feminine, fun, sexy, & lovely. Sometimes fierce is okay or needed and sometimes the tranquil horse is welcome. All those ways, it’s about how we go together.

  • #1948

    Josh

    HS? SN? Wasn’t really a friend of mine. She had some big parties at her home.

  • #1949

    Josh

    I am wishing..really hard…so hard…for a chance to live up to my responsibility of making up for these missing childhoods/time/loves. We try out best with what we can.

  • #1953

    Josh

    When did u feel like u first told me or showed me that I was meant to specially belong to u or that u wanted that?

  • #1958

    Josh

    Someday, when u are feeling down, u might think of the children’s books that u are proud of and show me. Then I’ll have one more thing to remind u about.

  • #1964

    Josh

    The way that the Tracy Chapman song “Thinking of you” made sense to me, in the beginning, was a big mystery. It felt like pure intuition that I had no rational explanation for. Makes a lot more sense now, knowing that u were thinking about me for 30 years and that u are a rare literary genius. I feel glad that I could at least recognize something real in my intuition. I followed it & never dismissed it.

  • #1966

    Josh

    It’s my 44th anniversary of falling in love with Bernie Parent?

  • #1970

    Josh

    The FBI design is to make my life as unpleasant and unproductive as they possibly can. It is difficult to never get a day free from painful abuse. The attack methods are queued up, so that went I defeat 1 or 2 in a day, the next try immediately starts. I stay positive and keep hoping to reach an endpoint or even a nice big vacation. At least I know what I am going to try first tomorrow.

  • #1971

    Josh

    U shouldn’t listen to all kind of nutty lies they tell u. U understand their goals are never honest. They have some kind of ability to suggest images or words etc. that come to me in sleep or half waking, but they don’t get any power from doing that, especially when the concepts have no connection to reality.

    • #1972

      Josh

      It’s wrong for u to put me in a position of trying to guess at lies which have no basis in reality. Last night I had a dream I half remember about owning a farm. Why? Don’t know. Strangers would approach from far away. I wondered about where the boundaries were. I noticed having a wife and then I woke up. She wasn’t connected to any real world person…just a dream figment. It wasn’t sexy…she was like a loyal farmer’s wife. I don’t know where it came from.

  • #1973

    Josh

    I keep u in my heart, all the time. I want to be with A. That’s what I want.

  • #1974

    Josh

    I love this picture. Love being close to Odin’s eye. Like a true life Norse goddess.

  • #1975

    Josh

    U say that I’m helping the FBI people to make their case for money? My hope is to reverse that trend in the long run. Money taken from one crook’s pot into another shouldn’t be our focus.

  • #1976

    Josh

    I always tell u the truth of what I feel.

    • #1977

      Josh

      Another idea I feel – emotional age is not the same as chronological age, and emotional age is not well represented by a single number/dimension, and I know I prefer being close to someone who matches on emotional age. It’s not an exact thing, but there is a feel like that, and I feel we are good.

  • #1978

    Josh

    Need to go see if I can do anything about a hidden device near where the chimney meets the roof.

  • #1981

    Josh

    U are no farm girl. Sometimes I try to think of how u feel “all cured”.

    • #1982

      Josh

      I mean that in a good way.

  • #1984

    Josh

    I Express <no distance> is how close I am to A.

  • #1985

    Josh

    I’ve made a halfway decent start on polyurethaning the tracks of my garage door, and a really good start on bringing sexy, baby Anna out of the page. When u get to live in the real world, we have to find the things that make u feel confident, in 4D, away from text. And we will.

  • #1988

    Josh

    I like the writing. I can’t tell if u were happy to accept the picture or if someone else forced it on u.

    https://twitter.com/NBSeen/status/851435589966671872v

    • #1989

      Josh

      U are really happy…that I’m happy to be whichever style of lover u like…and the FBI/CIA abortion killings are no longer something to brag about in the darkest regions of Spook land?

  • #1990

    Josh

    Jaw and hands are too big.

    • #2021

      Josh

      Well there u go…

      It's a big mouth strike again

      • #2024

        Josh

        The anthropological situation/habits of your world/reality is a lot different from everything one believes can be assumed as true. After I came to understand…being clubbed over the head with the hard to believe reality, through both FBI crime and my own research – I adjusted my concepts. Now, I think more accurately about where u are today, what the future could be, and what the adjustments would be like. I commit. We are a real relationship in that way. U needed me to understand, & be with u like that.

  • #1991

    Josh

    Don’t u feel that ur love way is super special?? I do!

    Also, a general point about growing up in spy land and the previous tweet…u WANT to adapt to a equal relationship where u are participating, We are closer today because of the way u know me from spy info. So u know I made a clean emotional break from that relationship without emotional difficulties (I was stuck in CA, but that was purely a practical/career related issue).

    U know me and u know u. That should be enough, or mostly enough.

  • #1997

    Josh

    What was the deal with the racist group VDare? Did that mean anything to u?

    • #1998

      Josh

      So did Spook create VDare? Was it for a political purpose or more like the FBI trying to draw white racists to a roach motel? Did u have any idea?

      • #1999

        Josh

        I don’t think it would have been done just to intimidate u. It’s been around for a long time now.

        • #2000

          Josh

          It makes sense that the FBI works the same way with racists as they do with gays. They publicly harass gays and attack white hate groups they don’t control, while recruiting same-sex men and racists they do control. Were there other similar groups like that they were involved in creating?

          • #2001

            Josh

            The “ex”/undercover FBI guy, Bannister, who was running Oswald in New Orleans was also doing work for the Mississippi Sovereignty Commission – which was basically an anti-civil rights Gestapo run by the State of Mississippi.

  • #2002

    Josh

    After all these years, how many real conversations have you all ever had with a Spook man regarding how they feel about being totally treasonous, mass murdering, and evil?

    I guess none, they don’t really think about it, they don’t know much, and they do what they are told. Am I right? Then why keep repeating nonsense that sounds like something else entirely?

  • #2005

    Josh

    It’s tricky to one-time read strangers. But my intuition says that your choose of this pic is ironic, in context, because the future us has a lot more time/space than u are used to, while big celebrities lose time/space with each “normal” thing they do.

    • #2027

      Josh

      They are probably too scheduled to spend that much time together or know each other very well. They are doing a couples thing while getting a bit of exercise, thinking about what they might be late for, and what needs to be rescheduled. Is there something missing??

      That was my thought.

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